I've never understood life.
I mean look around
Why is everyone so happy?
Why am I not?
Sure I smile and laugh
But it Isn't enough to let the days pass
Oh look at me
I'm crying
I'm dying
Feeling done with trying
When I try to be myself around the one person I can
Others disapprove
They disband
And that I wonder why
Isn't this what you wanted for me ?
To make a friend?
To be able to show my true smile to?
Or was it all a joke
Were you just taking pity?
Because I look around and no one cares
So I might as well do what I do best
And build the wall of despair
I've been here!
You can talk to me!
But no, you would rather choose someone else
Because I come with a fee
You ask me why I'm depressed
So here I am to tell you why
Don't bother telling someone else
Because I do not need help.
The reason I'm depressed
Huh...
Never thought I'd tell
But now I'm sick and tired of this spell
So here I go to let you be
To tell you the story
Of how I'm me
It all started long long ago
When I met this girl
About 5 years or so
She was strange
But quirky and cool
And I finally met my new friend in school
Moving on from that just a year up
I got bullied
Teased
And some what beaten up
I usually never smiled or cried or laughed
Until she came and ruined what I had last
She kicked me out
And that I won't forget
But I made new friends
Even better yet
3 girls all weird and crazy like me
We soon made a band
We obviously lacked
But soon we got better
Yes we did in fact
A year after that
You started to forget
Forget we were friends
I thought I was important
For once in my life
But you pushed me away
Into an even harder fight
Moving on from that
Just a couple years up
How could I forget
The acquaintance I met
Who turned into a friend
A friend I'll never regret
Maybe you'll have doubts
But I probably won't be there to find out
You made me smile
Something I hadn't done in a while
You made me laugh
Something I'd rather pass
But of course over a certain amount of time
People get annoyed
And that's just fine
I wonder why though
Why I can't be myself
But now I know
Because if I don't let myself show
Then you won't let go
Because death seems better than me losing you
And me losing you is worse than you losing me
And yes maybe you'll fight with me saying that
Someone did care
But it's all a lie
Cause Honey, life isn't fair
I have one final request
And a big one it is
The one I've been meaning to get off my chest
The one that kept me from rest
Stop being my friend
It shouldn't be so hard
Stop caring about me
When all I do is scar
Be happy like your life will serve
And leave me in the dark
My home preserved
I'll say it once more
In case you want to forget
Stop being my friend
It will be better yet
Move on with your life
Because I've already said goodbye
You can't change that
We're all going to die.
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So yeah... I got mad at my 'friend' because she said some stuff and yeah... ok bye bloop
