WITH YOU....

Chapter 3: Miracles.... (Will)

I had decided to be a happy man. I had given up the decision of euthanasia. I had decided to live my life with Louisa . I had decided to start things afresh . I still remember the day that was supposed to be my last on this earth. How she had stopped me. I was in my room with my parents. We had gone out to Macau for a change of scenery. But after we got back i had decided to go to Switzerland and get over with it. I hadn't told her anything about Switzerland. But she already knew about it. She tried to persuade me to stop all this. To not go to Switzerland. But i didn't listen to her.

She got angry and sad . She stopped trying to talk me out of it. When we went back ,she didn't say anything and had gone back to her house. I left for Switzerland without her. But finally she had come back. She had come back to me. I was in my room with my parents. As she entered,my parents left the room for us. 
"Don't tell me you're here to make me my last cup of tea"
She didn't reply to me .
"Louisa?...."
She had tears in her eyes.
"Don't do this to me Will"
She came towards me and sat beside me . She kept on looking away.
"Louisa.....look at me " .
She didn't respond .
"Louisa... Come here...."
She broke down and kept her head on my chest. She started to sob loudly.
"Shhsshh...shhh".
But she didn't calm down.
"Look at me ..."
"I can't "...

"Louisa i need to see your face....I need to see that face of yours ".
She looked at me teary eyed.
"The world will be a better place without me Louisa....."
" No it won't ".
She kept her head down again.
The feeling of her head on my chest gave me some sort of relief. Some sort of solace . I actually couldn't describe it.
" You considered the whole world but didn't consider mine ?"....
She got up and looked at me ..
"Will how am i supposed to express what i feel about you ..... How am i supposed to tell you that you mean the world to me ....
How can I express my feelings when those feelings take my breath away? How can I measure my love for you when that love compares to nothing else, and when that love exceeds all categories and all expectations? No words can express these realities. No words can express my love for you because you are indescribable, and my love for you is immeasurable.

Simply looking into your eyes sends me through a whirlwind of intense emotions. Just one brief smile from you fills my life with radiance and joy. Until the day I met you, I had never before felt so full of hope and passion. I want you to know, I am forever grateful to be with you. You have given me a heart full of love and days full of laughter, and I will give myself to you always..... Why don't you understand this..... "
"Why don't you understand that i won't​ be myself. If you leave me. I won't be my normal self. I will loose myself. "
She said sobbing.
A tear rolled down my eye.. i didn't know what to say. I kept on looking at her. She was crying. She loved me so much ?. Why did she love me so much?. I wasn't a normal guy. I was paralyzed. I couldn't give her alot of things someone else would. Why did she love me so much?. Why?.

"Why do you love me so much Louisa?". I asked with tears in my eyes.
"Why are you making it hard for me. Why are you making it hard for me to let go?. Why do you want me so much ?. Why do you want me to stay?. Why ?. Louisa ..... Don't do this let me go.". I said teary eyed.

"I am not letting you go"
"Louisa please.... Please don't make it so hard for me .."
She didn't speak for a while.
After a long pause she finally looked at me.
"Fine....You won't listen to me....Okay ... If you're stubborn so am i . If you won't listen to me i won't too. I have truly madly deeply fallen in love with you Will Traynor,you don't understand that but i do . She suddenly took out a syringe.

"Louisa what is this ?".
"It's my goodbye to the world".
"What?". I asked puzzled.
"I am not going to watch you die. You won't listen to me.  Fine so it's better i die first myself."
I was in shock.
"LOUISA!?ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND ???!!".
"Maybe i am...."
She was looking at the syringe.
"Mother!!!! Father!!!!"
My parents were somewhere outside. They did not hear me. I was getting anxious and scared. I couldn't move myself​.
"It's better i die first Will. ".
I had to act fast . She was going to inject herself with the euthanasia drug. She was going to do it. I had to act fast. I was trembling with fear. I had to act fast. I was sweating. She was going to do it. She was going to inject herself.
"Louisa Louisa please please don't do this .... Louisa please !!".
As the needle was about to touch her skin, something unexpected happened. The needle didn't touch her skin. The syringe was on the floor.  Both of us were shocked. The syringe was on the floor ,because it was pushed by something. It was pushed by my hands. I had pushed away the syringe. When she was just about to inject herself,i don't know how but i had gotten up and had thrown the needle away. All of a sudden,my limbs were functioning.

I was sitting up straight and Louisa was sitting beside me. Both of us were in shock. I was looking at my hand.  And she was too.
"Will.!..." . Louisa exclaimed
"Louisa i can move ..... Louisa ...".
She started to nod in excitement . She was in tears. I was in tears too. I leaned in and kissed her . My palms were holding​ her face. I pulled back and we smiled at each other. And i kissed her again. She was magic.  She was the miracle in my life .