I take a breath
I close my eyes
My head aches and throbs
My body sways
"Mary," I hear her say
"Mary, now is not the time."
I shake my head
"It's not my fault,"
The words whisper from my mouth
"Mary don't lie," comes the reply
I shake my head
I stick out my hand
And balance myself against the wall
The world is spinning
Round and round
Like the carousel at the old fairground
"Mary, control yourself, stop it,"
"I can't,"
My fingers start to tingle
My head grows boiling hot
The world does an upside down
I fall down against the wall
She pulls me up
She sits me down
And pushes my head to the floor
She brings me water
I gasp and heave
"Mary, damn it, stop!"
"I-I-I can't."
Hot tears run down my cheeks
I feel sick and burning
I am dizzy as the sea
My head is buzzing loud and frantic
My mind trips over me
"Mary."
She slaps my crying face
"Mary. Stop it now."
I see the lights
They are white lights in my eyes
I gasp and gasp
I can't breathe
What is this is the end
What if I can't
I can't do it this time
I am drowning in the white lights
My body tingling all over
My head is rushing
Body spinning
Eyes are blank and white
"Mary!"
It is too late
I feel myself fall back
I feel my body snap
A switch is flipped
It goes as black as night
