My friends at my school have gotten worried... But it's because I'm not fully who I am, a boy trapped, no, possessed in a girl's body... It's just not right.
My dad's wanting to ground me if I didn't sketch out one of my murals for a civics project...
And then I have to paint it tomorrow.
And Thursday I have practice
And the projects due friday
Only my friends are worried.
Not my teachers,
Not even my parents...
Not even my little bro, or my big sis...
But my big bro, is concerned, the only one who is always concerned about me...
I'm not able to get glasses until summer, and I'm deaths blind to computers and projectors, also sometimes phones and tablets...
Everyone's asking my why I'm not speaking, or calling me names like "Silent child" or even "muted daughter" and that one is because my dad teaches there, at my school...
I'm sick of my dad calling me "baby girl" is " my princess" because I'm not those...
And I'm also sick of my step mum, who is a therapist, think it's a phase!!! I just don't want it, and after being saves and rescued four times (imma not say what that means) by mark, it's been hard!
Some days I'm saying to myself "oh! I'll become a great gamer and singer on youtube!! " and other days are "ill end up on the streets if my parents don't except me, because of fear! "
Some nights I think happy and fall asleep in five minutes! And others are I'm crying myself to sleep, thinking about how they won't except me, and thinking of the soggy and sad pillow I lay on... And those sad nights aren't often!
I'm starting to learn sign language, so real school friends, watch out!
I won't be talking much. Nor answering or singing...
I hate my voice...
I hate my face
I hate my body
I hate how my own parents don't accept me
Sorry to lie this on you guys again,,
Goodie bye..
~ Nolan....
