The guide to Randomness

hiding the tears~Shadow Heart~

"Sometimes all you can do is smile. Move on with the day, hold back the tears and pretend your okay."

People hide their teats for different reasons. What whatever it may be, a person will always try to put on that tough guy act and make it look like everything is fine. They would be the comforter instead of the comforted. Hiding all of their emotions deep down in their chest where they would be breaking instead of sharing with the ones around them.
  Heart break can be a devastating thing and a cause for depression and tears. When one friend or relative cries you just want to cry too, but you try and wait until you get to your room or that special quiet place to let it all out. Some people feel like they are being a burden to others when it comes to their emotions so they keep them hidden. But really, it only makes it worse.
  For years and years I would suffer at times, but I would always keep my dark and sad emotions buried deep down in my body, letting them build up inside of me, thinking I was doing the right thing. But it only made things worse. My friends would always tell me I was so tough and emotionally strong because I would stand up for them and always had a smile on my face. Sometimes brave sometimes a little sad. Because of that I refused to let them see me cry. I thought, “they thing I am the strong one, but if I cry than they won't anymore. Than they will think I am weak and won't come to me whenever they have a problem." So I would hold in the teats. And wait until I was all alone to cry. Meaning that I would have no one to comfort me.
   I finally broke and showed everyone my tears after my friend died. When I saw my friends crying I would cry with them. But only shed a few tears. But it was at his funeral that I broke down a cried more than anyone else there. That night I was up at 3 in the morning talking to my friend. And I told him my problem about how I was always listening to others. But I could never share my problems. And he told me, “Those who truely love you, will always listen to you, and comfort you."
    Sometimes I still do hide my tears and just put on a brave smile. But I know that either way I will survive. I just remember a quote from a book I read. “Because its true. I'm okay, I'm always okay. Even when I'm not." If you are like how I used to be than don't be afraid to share. Cause like my friend said. You can always go to the people who love you. Friends, family. You can even go to a trusted counselor. Because they will always be there to comfort and listen to you. They will always be there to tell you that everything is okay.
    Sometimes it is okay or vest to hide the tears with a smile. Other times its not. I have faith that you can trust yourself to know when those times are. And remember, you are and always will be LOVED.

   I know it may be a bit sad. But I have had a lot of people dealing with this kind of thing so I felt like I should share the message.
   ~Shadow Heart