the gallaghers

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The days are shit and seem to fly by carls havn't been going to school im big time slacking i just don't give a fuck about amything right now. Ian comes by my house to spend time with me but i miss all the gallaghers even carl but he hurt me so i have to stay away.
"Hey kid you shouldn't be sitting down here by yourself" i looked up to see lip as he sat next to me in this empty under ground trian staion alone to cry by myself
"Are you ok" he asked blowing out smoke with made me chuckle and wip my eyes
"He told me i deserved to be raped by my dad i was fucking 4 when he first started i didnt deserve anything" i said with no emotion lip put a arm around me pulling me to a hug i closed my eyes and let tears come down
"Hes a fucking dick i warned you us gallaghers aren't no good iris" lip said putting the death stick between his lips agian
"I know and i didnt listen i even warned my own self" i said looking down frowning with tears in my eyes looking at him
"I love him tho" i said shaking
As he looked at me blowing out smoke
"He loves you too thats why he can't come to close to you your his gas and hes fire just gets out of control and makes a big mess" he said putting a hand on my knee before getting up
"Hes trying he knows he fucked up" lip said walking off i rested my head on the wall behind me and closed my eyes
Flashback**
Its all in slow motion his smile his laugh his heart beat the time we have together i thought to myself while i watched him sleep but i guess he woke up with his eyes still closed he smiled and pulled me in to a hug as i giggled hugging him tight
Flash over****
I let out a sigh i got up
"Damn it" i said looking at the rain i was only in a tee and skinny jeans i rolled my eyes and started walking
**Play song**
I walked on the side walk with my hands in my pocket looking at each store
I miss him so much i thought to my self as i crossed the rode
"GOD DAMIT" i cried out as the dump truck got water all over me evrythins just pissing me off making me cry harder then i already was i walked pass ians old work finally getting on my street it was raining so hard i looked up i stopped in my tacks seeing carl about 20feet away from me we both stood in the street i felt lumps in my throut my body weak as i cry i started to run as he did to i smashed my body in to his sobbing hard
"Im sorry im so fucking sorryy" hr cried in my ear holding me tighter wrapping my legs around him he just cried on my as i did the same
"Im sorry iris i fucked up i hurt you i fucking hurt you it makes me so sick im sorry" i said
I nodded while crying just hugging him letting out shaky breaths "its ok" i said over the loud rain we stood the like idiots hugging
"All i want is you" he yelled crying holding my face i nodded and he smashed are lip together it felt like the world spinning at 1000 miles my knees weak and my heart beating agian.