forever. • JOSHLER

~24~(tw!)

{trigger warning i'll put ** when it starts and ends}

~tyler's pov~

it's been truly hard without him

i miss him so much 

blurry has been getting worse

a lot worse

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i tried to shut my eyes and sleep while my parents were in the room next door quiet and peaceful

i started having flash backs

from when blurry took over 

before josh

flashback~

**

the voices got louder

go to the bathroom now

i was cold

open the cabinet and grab what you need

i reached into the cabinet 

grab it 

with shaky hands i took the blade from the shelf

okay now start

i sat on the cold floor of the bathroom and rolled up my sweater sleeve

i yelped at the contact against my past scars

beautiful, now just 4 more

i slid the blade across my skin going deeper this time

just 3

i went deeper as salty tears fell down my cheeks

a small puddle of blood formed on the floor

2

i let this one in deeper

i winced at the pain of a tear falling into a bloody cut

1

the last one cut the deepest

my vision was blurry and everything went black

i felt like i could hear blurry's cheering in the background

**

end of flashback~

i woke up sweaty and panting 

i grabbed my phone from the nightstand and dialed josh's number

his voice was raspy and sounded 

really hot

"hello" 

"h-hey joshie, i know it's late i just want to hear your voice,"

"are you okay" his voice was filled with concern

"ye-yea of course, i just wanna talk"

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i got bored and wrote this so yea

also i just updated twice in a row 

i love you eat something drink water

also really hot

bye babes i love you again and stay alive

~jules