JAI
I went over to mums house and saw Luke and Beau playing FIFA . Mum must've been at work.
' Oh hey Jai ?' luke said surprised
' hi ' my voice croaked as i stared at them with my bloodshot eyes
' so what are you doing here ' he asked
' you know where bailey is ' i ask
'umm no shes usually with you ' he says confused
' shes ran away ' i start crying again Luke runs over to me and hugs me tight .
BAILEY
Beau: Hey Jai feels shit about losing you maybe you should give him another chance ?
he sent a photo of Jai crying into Lukes shoulder I did feel bad but hes treating the babies ike theyre nothing and maybe its for the best . I mean it's my own fault i guess why would he change. Why would I fall for my bully and a guy who abused me .
JAI
" BEAU YOU FUCKING CUNT YOu new where she was and you didn't tell me" I start screaming but ended up in tears
" Jai I'm sorry but it's for the best" he says sympathetic
" NO NO NO NOOO I love her " I scream
" you didn't show her Jai " he lets a tear slip
" stupid stupid stupid " I mumbled to myself punching myself in the head
BEAU
" He's going insane " I whisper as Jai sat on the floor rocking back and fourth
" we have to get her back " luke says
" or distract him " I suggest luke nods
" Jai " I say softly
" what " his eyes wide
" we're having a party tonight " I say
" and ? I'll just go home" he says
" no I want you to be there " I say there was a long silence then finally he says
" fine but I'm going home now to get ready "he half smiles I rub his back
JAI
I walked into the babies room I had cleaned the clothes off the ground I looked into the cot where they used to sleep I look over at the rocking chair where bailey used to feed them and put them to sleep tears rolled down my cheeks that when I realised I'm a dead beat I'm a shitty dad .
I got changed into black jeans and a grey hoodie . I went back to beaus I saw maybe 50 people there already so I drank and drank til I eventually forgot .
BAILEY
I'm renting an apartment here in LA it's a decent size I bought a portable crib for the girls to sleep in for now and I met a friend at the airport her name is "Luca" it reminded me of luke "Lucas" I chuckled at the memories I and like had then I realised how much I miss them Taytum started crying which took me out of my trance
" shh shh it's okay baby " I rock her
She eventually calmed down .
This is going to be hard on my own .
It's about 10 pm the girls are sleeping im scrolling through twitter when I saw
@jaibrooks1 : man I MIsS heR .
@brooksbeau : Awesome party tonight !
With a video he did a circle I saw for a split second Jai Making out with some chick I rolled my eyes . I need sleep.
