stalemate (BL Novel)

stalemate 004

hi kay twinii na very supportive!

YAOI IS LIFE!

~kei

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"YOU'VE NEVER GOTTEN ANGRY TO THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE NO MATTER HOW MUCH THEY HURT YOU. THAT'S HOW I KNEW."

Eisuke knows me very well, I wanted to laugh. After comforting me yesterday, we proceed with our report. My mind was somewhere but Eisuke never forced me to focus on the report. He just let me mourn on my lost love. I didn't cry yesterday. Because somehow I knew this, whatever Keita and I have, will end eventually. I just wasn't expecting it to be this soon. Hell, I wasn't even expecting it to begin in the first place.

The whole night, wala akong nareceive even a single text from Keita. The whole night, I wondered if he will even bother to apologize to me. Will he explain everything to me? Why he did those things to me? Do I even deserve an explanation? An apology?

It was my fault for not asking when it started. It was my fault for letting him touch me. It was my fault for being greedy.

We'll be back to normal. I'll be fine if we can go back to being normal friends.

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"YOUJIN!"

I turn on my back and saw Keita running towards me. I stopped to wait for him. He halted in front of me, chasing his breath.

"Ano yun, Keita?"

"Uhm..." I studied his face he looks uncomfortable. "Busy ka ba mamaya after class?"

"Bakit?" Good job Youjin for keeping your cool.

"May bagong movie kasi akong nakuha kay Misao. Gusto mo panuorin mamaya sa bahay?"

He's still inviting me? We're still friends.

"Youjin!" Another familiar voice called. Eisuke walked towards us and stopped beside me, eyeing Keita. "Anong meron?"

"Ah, iniinvite ako ni Keita manuod ng movie sa kanila mamaya." I answered.

"Ah, oo. Gusto mo sumama Eisuke?"

Eisuke had been looking at Keita like he wanted a fight with him. I don't know how to convince Eisuke not to get too worked up over this matter.

"We're free later. But—" Eisuke placed his arm over my shoulders. "May gagawin kami ni Jin sa apartment."

"Eisuke?!"

"Maybe next time, Keita-kun." Eisuke dragged me away

"PLANO MO PA DIN BANG SUMAMA KAY KEITA?" Eisuke asked as soon as we get away from Keita.

"We're still friends?" I wanted to sound sure but it turned out more as a question. Should I be glad he treats me like he always do? But it just means he doesn't care what I feel about yesterday's events. Maybe it wasn't my business to begin with.

"Friends? Kaibigan mo bang matatawag kung ginagago ka niya ng harap harapan? You don't have to keep up with his shenanigans just because you like him. You're smarter than this, Youjin!"

I know, he's right. And I know the best thing to do is to disappear from him and end whatever thing we have between us. That's the right thing to do. But my stubborn self doesn't want to. Just from thinking that I won't be able to talk with him, laugh with him, or even stand by his side anymore makes me want to cry. This is too painful but I can't let go. I'm fine even with being normal friends. Normal friends.