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19-5-17
dear diary,
i scrolled through her instagram with my heart wrenching with jealousy, she gets all the attention, all the boys and all the friends. i don't get attention, no one has a crush on me and i have three friends. i don't want to be her but i want to be like her just to get attention. any guesses on who she is? my own sister, Murphy Daniels (a/n fake name). our parents love her and give her loads of attention whilst i'm in the background screaming for help. she broke her elbow whilst i'm here battling with my own mind. broken bones heal naturally but menatal illnesses don't. sometimes i think i should just end my life. but then think of all my (3) friends and my dogs, that's the only reason i'm alive.
-goner