If I Stay | Ricci Rivero (Book 2: DISCONTINUED)

Kabanata 12

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Kabanata 12

Masakit

Everyone went back to their own assigned rooms. Tulog na rin sila Michelle, pero hanggang ngayon ay hindi ako makatulog. Nakailang ikot na ako sa kama pero wala padin. I keep on thinking sa mga nangyayare ngayon.

I should stop being affected diba? Kasi tapos na? Kasi wala na? Kasi di na mababalik pa?

Maibabalik pa ba?

I decided to shrugged this out at lumabas nalang with my spaghetti strap and cotton shorts. Wala naman sigurong tao sa gantong oras. And I would probably go to the darkest part. Gusto ko lang talaga mapag isa.

I strolled around the shore at nag isip isip. I couldn't help but to reminisce our memories together; roadtrips, snaps, lamon chronicles, specfriends, AlCci, baby ko, ricci ko..

Ricci ko?

"I'm saying itigil na natin 'to." He said as he looked away, "Itigil na natin 'to habang maaga pa."

"Excuse me?" I sarcasticallly said. "Bawiin mo 'yan, Ricci."

"I'm sorry.."  Was all he said.

"What are you even sorry for?" Matapang na tanong ko habang nakatitig sa mata niyang hindi makatingin sa akin.

"Why not stop now when we can still be saved?" Sambit niya, pero parang hindi ayon ang nais niyang sabihin.

"Di ko gustong masalba kung iiwan mo lang rin ako, Cci." I stated with pride. "And don't ever use jealousy as an excuse para mag hiwalay tayo. I know there's something else."

Muli siyang tumingin sa akin na parang nahuli ko siya, "Ano?"

At doon kong nalaman na nag sisinungaling nga siya sa akin.

"You freaking tell me right now, Ricci Paolo Rivero!" I demanded. Sobrang galit na galit na ako. Sobra. Umaapaw na ang luha ko sa galit.

"Calm down, baby ko.." Gulat niyang sambit at hinawakan ako sa balikat.

"If you're going to hold me, don't ever let me go! Wag mo 'kong iwan sa ere!" I exclaimed. "Did someone tell you to do this?!"

"I'm so sorry.." Huminga siya ng malalim at tumingin sa baba.

"Fucking fight with me, Ricci! Ano ba!" I cried harder. "You're giving me up? You're giving me up because of that girl?"

"I want to, baby, kung alam mo lang.." Sambit niya at nag pipigil mag pakita ng kahinaan.

"Kung gusto mo ang isang bagay, ipaglaban mo! Man freaking up, Ricci Rivero ko! What happened to you?!" My voice broke.

He held me tighter, "Hawak nila ang career mo, Alexis. I just can't. I didn't have a choice.."

"Bullshit, Ricci." I sarcastically chuckled. "Ginanyan din nila ako but I was going to talk to you before I could decide. I want to think about the possibilities; the chances. And now you're giving me that crap? Ginamit mo pa si Kib? Seriously? You can lie to me now?"

"It was for you." Matapang niyang sambit.

"It was for you mo 'to." Pilosopo kong sabi.