Forced

Failed

I wake Up in my dads Bed

I failed , like always , i should've slit my wrists not sideways , Down

Did I not take enough tablets , do I need a gun

Or do I need Love

Either way , they won't help

Its out there

Im out there

The worlds out there

and Everyone see's

I see

You see

People See

Families See..

I wish

I wish

I wish

What do I wish?

I wish to just disappear in a black hole

No one will know

No one will realise

No one with remember

Ill just go down in history

I just go down and drown in my blood and tears

Ill just drown in the words people throw at me

slut

whore

bitch

use less

Try hard

Fake

Wannabe

Liar

Hoe

Postertute

Stripper

I know what they call me

Just because I look down and hide my face

or go on a fake account and use a google picture

Doesn't mean I don't see it

If I turn to a new human

And start my life again

Ill still know and see what people call me

theres no denial on saying you weren't apart of the 'ARMY'

Or whatever they call it

Are they proud of themselves

Are they happy they have made there own species Die

Or at Least Attempt ?

Are they making there selves feel better

Or are they just putting hate in the past that as thrown at them now onto me?

I guess I won't know

Actually

I do know

But there are no words In history or planets to explain the pain That has been thrown

I know

I know

I

know

...

A/N I have no comment on what deep thing I just wrote on