Crestfallen

3: Falling.

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Conan silently walked inside his house. Three years after they had defeated the organization, he decided to move out from the agency. The resemblance with Shinichi was getting more and more obvious. To escape suspicion, he decided to live in the Kudo manor after Akai went back abroad.

He sighed as he entered. The towering shelves of books calmed him reflexively. He took a seat in the couch as his mind wandered to his talk with the scientist earlier.

He was angry, yes... but not directly at Haibara. He knew she did all that she could to make the antidote. It was just that his body is already immuned to it.

'Damn, I should've heed to her more about moderately using the prototypes.' he thought, blaming himself for the failure.

He knew he was at fault. If only he didn't stubbornly use all those prototypes. Haibara already warned her. But to the scientist, she was the one at fault. She's blaming herself for being incompetent. She was drowning herself in self-hate again.

'What was she thinking? Wanting to disappear?' he thought as he got up and went to the balcony. He wanted to get some fresh air to clear his thoughts. 

He was busily breathing in the fresh air when his eyes caught sight of the scientist who was suspiciously walking outside the professor's house. She was not carrying anything though, but she was looking out, like she doesn't want to be spotted.

'What was she doing?' he asked
mentally.

For some unknown reason, he felt uncomfortable. His body seems to act on its own as it made its way to the door. He really had a bad feeling about this. He will follow her.

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Conan was walking several meters away from the scientist now. He does not like where she was heading. If he was not mistaken, the cliff was the only place in the direction where she was going.

'Haibara... are you?'

He continued in following her. Thank the gods, she doesn't seem to notice his presence. Her mind was preoccupied at the moment.

They were walking for some time now and he already caught a glimpse of the cliff ahead.

'So she really intends to go to the cliff. Damn Haibara.' he wanted to cuss at her for having this kind of thoughts.

How many times have it been already? She was always meaning to end her life. And now this? Is she intending to jump off the cliff? 

She was already nearing the edge now. She stopped when her feet was only a step away from the edge. He observed her for a bit. She closed her eyes, as if to contemplate about he remaining time of her life.

From his distance, Conan was having trouble seeing her face. Her back was facing him. Because of it, he did not see the tears that was now starting to stream down in her face. 

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Haibara mused for a while. She looked down the cliff. Sharp rocks awaited her at the bottom. She knew it will be a painful fall... but she knew she deserve it.

'Only painful death awaits a traitor and a failure like me.' she thought bitterly as she felt tears starting to form in her eyes.

She closed her eyes, and comtemplated a bit. She thought about her life... in the organization, as Miyano Shiho... and her life as Haibara Ai. She hates to admit, but she really liked her life right now as Haibara Ai. She had people who wanted to hang out with her, who worried about her and who considered her as a friend. She had experience a lot of fun with the kids and the professor...with him. She felt thankful for the experience. But now, that needs to end. The dream was over. It was time to wake up in the cruel reality again. 

She let one of her feet dangle on thin air, as if weighing. Her hands are trembling and cold.

'Its time.' She thought as she slowly step forward, closing her eyes in the process. She held her breath. She can feel her heart beating loudly in her chest.

She expected falling now, but instead she was pulled by a strong force that made her thrown several meters away from the cliff. She opened her eyes.

Hovering over her was the towering figure of Edogawa Conan, his eyes showing signs of anger.

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A/N: awww..i realized i had published the 4th part without publishing this one. Hahahaha! what a dummy. Sorry.