August 18 , 2017
5:45pm
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" Why "?
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" Momma what Happened "?
" Yo-yo-your da-daddy died " she says crying even more.
Woah 😣
I would've never ever visoned my daddy dieing , tears came flowing down my face.
" Mo-momma don't do shit stupid alright?you still got me and you just turned 38 you still got time to find another one " I say crying more as the tears began to grow in waterfalls.
" Baby what's wrong "?Uzi says getting up confused.
"I know baby girl but bring yourself down here as soon as possible so you could see him before he goes down and bring my grandbab-baby and Uzi " she says crying still.
Y'all wouldn't understand the connection I have with my momma and daddy.we even lived in a poverty stricken neighborhood and they did everything to keep me up.
But y'all really wouldn't able to understand the love my momma and daddy had.No cheating.No arguments.no nothing.They were like Bonnie and Clyde they met while in middle school at the end of 6th grade.
They loved each other hard and they satsified each other alot.my momma is actually broke she is actually really broken this hurt her more then it hurted me.
My daddy was her Clyde and she was his Bonnie they were like the advanced gangster couple.more like kingpins they just we're so close.
I sat there with tears still flowing not just because of my daddy dieing but my momma finally broke down.
" Baby talk to me "!Uzi says and grabs my phone and adds "Hello"?
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" Oh mane we co-coming as soon as we can alright momma "?
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" Alright love you and she loves you too and essence ".
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He finally ends the call and tells the gang they have to go so we can pack and he told them what Happened and they all hugged me good bye.
I carried essence in the house as Uzi followed.
" Im sorry Nisha ".
" It's not your fault it's okay " I say lowly walking upstairs to the room.
I go in and lock the door and sit and put my face in my palms.
This to much 😔
The rape
People switching left and right
My daddy gone 😔😔and I ain't get to say goodbye
My momma broke whole 😔
I guess it's goodbye to everyone essence , Uzi and my momma and the gang 😔
I guess everybody was right , im just not meant to be here I hate I have to go through this
I unlock the door and I go in the bathroom and get one of our knives in there just because anything can happen.
I get the knive and cut one of my wrists and immediately feel dizzy.
I cut deeper in my wrists feeling my ankles go out.
The door busts open and I look up to see Uzi crying and I just lay back.He called 911 and they were here fast and got me and Uzi with essence.
" Why baby why "?Uzi asks crying.
" I can't do it "I lowly say.
" I swear I gotchu and essence do too ".
I weakly smile as we got out and they rushed me into the emergency room attempting to stop my bleeding.
After I got in there and they stopped it everything went dark.
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