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ws eighty-five

Yein

Okaayy. So today, we are going to the gymnasium arena because it's the ISAC day today. I don't know what I should feel right now. I'm kinda excited but kinda nervous because of the Rhythmic Gymnastic. I'm feeling a bif of not going today, but I have no choice but to go.

I just hope I won't be distracted later. We are currently at the outside while the cameras are in front of us. Pose, smile, peace sign and click!

While smiling, a famliar figure suddenly popped out on my sight. The smile I'm wearing, slowly faded and alternated by an emotionless one.

Why am I affected this much? It's just a small thing but why am I acting as if it's a big deal?

Not making it any longer, finally, we are now going inside. BTS is now taking the place where we were earlier. I sighed. It's gonna be a long day indeed.

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The Rhythmic Gymnastic will be held after lunch, so we are staying at the room given to us, taking our lunch while me, preparing myself together with my manager and my stylist.

"Don't be nervous, Yein. You can do that." I just smiled. I've never been this nervous in my life. I wish I could do better later.

Three calm were heard by the door. One of our staffs stood up and went there. When she saw the person who knocked the door, she immediately went to my place.

"It's Jungkook," she said and a teasingly smiled plastered on her face. I just showed a weak smile and said, "Tell him that I'm busy preparing. If he still insists, tell him that I won't talk to him anymore."

"Do you have a fight, don't you?"

"Haha. It's nothing," I lied.

She now goes to Jungkook who is waiting at the door. After that, she already closed the door. I breathe in relief.

The time flies so fast, lunchtime has already came to an end. Now, my heart is beating so fast as we headed our way outside.

"Don't be nervous, Yein-ah. You can do good!" - Mijoo unnie

"Goodluck, maknae. You can do that!" - Sujeong unnie

"We will cheer for you, don't worry." - Jiae unnie.

All I can do is to show a smile behind the dither that I'm feeling.

I'm at the back of a huge tarpaulin with the other contestants. We made friends and talked about how nervous we are at now. I met WSJN's Chengxiao and many more.

"Lovelyz' Jeong Yein," the MCs called my name. I breathe deeply and smiled. I can do it!

I stepped out while holding the ball with my right hand. All eyes are on me that made me more feel nervous.

I breathe and smiled and the song Sway was played. I started performing. With nervousness, I can't even look at the audience. It's my first time to perfom but I'm not new to this since ballet is my expertise.

I'm lying at the ground and the ball on my feet, I threw it with my feet to landed on my back but it went to the other way! I just made a mistake! I stood up and get the ball and just improvised the steps to make it flow rightly.

I finished performing and the crowd gave an applause. I don't know why, but tears started streaming down on my face. I did my best, but my best wasn't still enough.

I wiped my tears and smiled. After the interview, I went back to our room. While walking, I unexpectedly bumped into him... into Jungkook.

I'm hesitating to step back to avoid him or just continue walking and act as if I didn't see him. In the end, I went with my second choice. I passed by without looking at him.

"Yein-ah..."

Again.. my tears started running down. Did I just cry because I think I didn't do my best earlier or because of the fact that the guy that I loved, lied and deceived me and my heart?