First my uncle died now my grandpa is in the hospital... why must I always be in pain on the verge of tears and breaking down. Let me tell you the smile you see is a cover and its hard to keep it is only after years of pain I am able to keep it up for long periods of time. You may think I am just looking for attention but I am the type of girl to let others shine while I am in the backround slowly dieing on the inside... I even have "friends" that walk all over me and treat me like s**t. I just take it I am tired of trying, tired of the pain, and tired of hiding.
