Dont mind my shit

do i tell them?

Help me please! Do i tell my parents im genderfliud or not? I want them to know my pronouns or at lest use they, them, and theirs all thw time because, for exapmle, i was a guy today. At 2 am my gender was like, nope your a guy now, and i was so uncomfortable until i put on lose shirt and pajam pants.

I wanted to be called a he, him, his todag and only mh sister did when not near my aprents (out of respect for me to tell them).

I also nearly died when they called me my name since its pretty girly. Liu (shirt for girl names, and a guy name) is my nickname by friends but not  because of gender problems.

I almost told, but i chickened out (since half way threw a movie i was like both genders with more guy in me,  and as a girl, at all, i get even worse at talking to them. . . Its not fun so don't  ask how that works). It sucked because in the end i ended up just curniling next to my mom. (Im not very man like as a guy. . .im just a teen gamer guy who sometimes gives into his problems when i am a guy).

As a girl im shyer (more introverted i guess) because thats my labeled gender and im not a girl often. . . Unless you count when im both but even then my inner guy is domenent normally.

As both i normally act more like a guy because i was raised by two very closesly for quite a few years (at that time i was both almost all the time, but took to being a guy more then my female side. . .its complicated).

As a guy im very different. I act very diffrent but not in a way that you expect. Things like sitting, getting ready for the day, even a dam shower is harder. I have a shit lot of female stuff, am required to shave (i said fudge that today though cause i had one lose clean shirt), and i sit unlike a proper girl. A girl in a dress, now imagain the oposset and you ahve how i sit and dress.

As neither i have no dam idea what to do with myself. These days i stay under a blanket a lot more, eat a lot more, watch tv/game, and try and sleep until i have a gender again.... it sucks when this happens.

Also everyone i tryed to talk to where to busy to reply (mu cuz who i needed really badly).

Good luck to all ya female trans/genderfliud. . .you know why as well as i do why i said that.  Now if you will let me go i have to refuse tl punch something/someone again... im violent r.n.