The Wife's Survival

CHAPTER 10

             CARA

I can't believe I just left my baby. I just left him at the orphanage. I feel like turning back but I know I could not do that to him, I just hope he will be adopted by a nice family and have a great childhood.

I can't help but think how well it went and I can't help but think how empty I feel as all these emotions I have kept at bay came flooding back.

I can finally allow myself to be consumed by darkness. It was time to leave, to let go. Coward I know. But now I have ubsolutely nothing left to live for. Especially now.

My last thought as I drifted to sleep. Ethan,My brother.

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" oh come on!! Mom will not find out! Its just one dip in the water and we will be back." He kept whining.

" Than, mom told us we could not go without them it !" but he would still not give up.

" But I just want to build sand castles! We did not build sand castles last time, I promise not to go in the water, pleaasseee! "

" okay okay! Let"s go but we have to be back before mom comes back or she will ground us like the last time."

We went to the beach and played for a while, " can I go get water?"

Without looking up I said " okay" . he never returned.

" caraaa help" I looked up and my nightmare begun, he had gone too far, caught up in a wave and in my 10 year old mind the only thing that came up was to go find mom and everything else was a blur . mom came back screaming and that day my brother died, ifailed to save him.

I killed my brother. Ethan .

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I woke up in sweat. i had not  dreamt of my brother for years. Therapy helped, but now i guess i have nothing to fear i was going to him in a few and i will not have to feel guilty, he won't feel alone anymore.

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THERE, THERE!  guys i'll have you know sad stories is not my forte.

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