pretend ; 'g.b.d' (almost complete)

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Kylie;

I didn't go to school today. For the last two weeks, I've really been inactive in school anyways and I've been skipping most classes and not even finishing my homework anymore.

I get hate comments non stop and messy Dms.

And I don't have anyone to vent to like lexi or ally... Ally left school because she got pregnant. And ally just won't talk to me.

And my mom is never home because she travels to countries to give medicine to people which is amazing.. but I never get to see her.

I've been seeing gray around school with other girls lately too.

Yes it hurts me. hurts me bad.

My bed is so warm and cozy and I don't wanna get up. But unfortunately I have to go deal with stupid people today.

Lately I've been really lazy and had like I don't give a fuck anymore.

I'm now the most irresponsible person in the world.

But fuck it ,school is really lame and if you tell me you like school , I might hundred percent hate you.

It's been and hour since my alarm went off.

But I'm still sitting on the edge of my bed.

I get up and throw on some mom jeans on and a cute crop top.

I rub my eyes one again for the past 30 minuets.

I pick up my phone and my wallet and put it in my pocket.

You know what fuck school.

I decide to go to the mall and blow my money.

Because when was the last time I treated myself? can't remember.

I arrive at the mall and head straight to the cafe area downstairs to grab McDonald's.

I sit at a table and eat all by myself.

I ordered nuggets, fries and a large sprite.

I just sat there a the table eating with pleasure.

After having a long walk and going to the book store. I headed to Starbucks.

I took my new book out and drank my coffee in a booth.

And just chilled.

By myself.

Alone.

Isolated.

I start reading my book.

I placed my small bags in my backpack and stop reading.

I close my book, and looked out side out the little window next to me.

Fuck...

It's almost dark.

I glance at my phone it's 6:39 pm when I left it was like 2:50 something.

I gave myself some time to chill and just relax and let shit go.

I took my phone out again out of my bag and turn it on.

I have 19 messages from Grayson.

Damn.

I Power down my phone, and put it back into my bag.

I'll just stay antisocial and isolated just to myself how i was suppose to be in the first place.

-Authors note-

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