IN A QUIET VOICE

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Entry 1 : 2005

The little guy's life is perfect . He has doting parents and a protective elder brother . He is from a rich family . He has everything .

Entry 2 : 2006

The boy has started going to my school . I have a feeling that we're going to be best friends . He is so sweet and caring . When mean boys pulled my little pony tails and called me a fool , he stood up for me . He stands up against every wrong .

Entry 3 : 2007

Well, I was wrong . He isn't my best friend or any sort of friend . Maybe I can call us acquaintances ( its a word that I learnt in class today ) .He is not mean , just not involved . He's changing .

Entry 4 : 2008

He has changed . The guy I used to know from afar is gone . At least it feels like it . He isn't so carefree nowadays . But he has the perfect family and so many friends , not like me who's called a freak and has a family who couldn't be more indifferent . I wonder what is wrong , I've watched him for so long that it feels like I know him .

Entry 5 : 2009 [ May ]

My twelve year old heart is broken . I thought he would care for me in place of my family . He was so kind when we were kids but he's so mean now . He called me a lonely loser . It hurts.

Entry 6 : 2009 [ November ]

He's moving .

Entry 7 : 2010

I don't know what happened but he never came back. If I think back , I can see that he was sad . He wasn't being mean just for his selfish amusement . I know that . So I've forgiven him for , you know , calling me that .

Entry : 2010 [ Later in the year ]

I have nothing to write because my muse is gone . I hope he'll be back . Now I think I know why I am hurt when I don't see him I think I have a crush on him I heard girls talking about it in school . They were saying that meant when you care for someone in secret .

Entry 9 : 2012

He's back !!! I'm elated !!

Entry 10 : 2012

I saw him . He's not the same . He doesn't have his brother and father , only his mum . I don't know what happened. They were so happy . Now I see my reflection in him and trust me that's not good .

Entry 11 : 2012

He's back at school . Doesn't laugh or joke anymore , just smiles at familiar faces but I can see its a facade .

Entry 12 : 2012

I found him in the school backyard . Sobbing alone . My heart aches for him but I couldn't gather enough courage to approach him .

Entry 13 : 2013

I found him again . This time I went to him . He tried to hide his tears but one can do so much . I got nervous at the last moment and couldn't say anything . Just sat there awkwardly beside him when he surprised me by tightly hugging me and crying . I tried my best to console him but I've never been consoled so I didn't really know what I was doing . He opened up to me about his life going downhill . His father cheated and his mother almost killed herself . Then his parents separated and he got to stay with his mom and his brother got their father . He mentioned something about the legal procedures barring him from visiting .
I don't understand , how can the law dictate how a person feels ?

Entry 14 : 2013

We've been meeting once a week behind the school but he's still not what I can call a friend . He doesn't smile or acknowledge me in school . He says I'm his secret confidante and that sometimes it is easier to confide in strangers because they can't judge you for your past and the fact that they don't really know or care for you enough to try and intervene in the situation .
He never asks me for anything and I don't push him to talk . Whenever he feels like sharing , he starts talking . Rest of the time , we just sit in silence .
I'm content to be just that as long as he is getting some comfort .

Entry 15 : 2013

I have so much of love in me and no one to give it to . I can't show or profess my love but I love him . In every way possible but I have accepted that no one can ever love me because it doesn't work that way . If loving a person made them love you back then my family would be nicer and not just a bank account .
But it feels so good to love someone , someone who confides in me .

Entry 16 : 2014

He said it was the last time we are meeting . That he has somewhere to be . I just asked him to be strong and never give up on life because then he'll never know what's next . That's what keeps me alive... Curiosity .

Entry 17 : 2015

He moved again . He wants to start fresh and graduate somewhere else and have a good life with people who care . He left me a note . It said that he wants to leave this place because of all the bad memories . He thinks he has nothing left in this small town except empty houses , silent screams and bitter memories but he doesn't know that he'll always have something in this small town ...

A confidante and a well wisher.
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Author's note : Hey guys ! To anyone reading this I love you already and would love you more if you click on the little star and also comment your thoughts on this to me . Was it good ? Was it bad ? Please let me know . Please don't be unkind cause if you are authors you know the crappy feeling but constructive criticism is welcome .

Have a good day and night . All the best wishes...
Thea