DIRTY LAUNDRY

04

And it's 4 in the morning,
I'm just trying to fix myself •

I was trying to figure out a way to get out of bed by not waking Jack up. That turned out to be surprisingly easy, he is a hard deep sleeper. I quickly ran to the bathroom, where I brushed my teeth in order to get rid of my morning breath, I washed my face and fixed my hair.
When I returned to the room, Jack was still laying in my bed but he was wide awake, looking at me with a grin.

"Oh, you're up." I said, surprised and a bit disappointed because god knows I was hoping to lay next to him for a few more minutes.

"Yeah, thanks for last night, it was fun watching a movie with you. And sorry I took all the bed space." He said, chuckling.

"And the duvet." I added. "No problem. I haven't watched that movie in forever, it was fun."

He got up, walked around the room and stretched his limbs while yawning. He still looked flawless. His hair was messy and everywhere and his eyes were still not fully open, his shirt was sticking to his body but it made him look even sexier in my book.

"It's already one? Holy shit that was a proper sleepover we had here." He said, taking a seat on the edge of his bed. "You ready to party tonight?"

I nodded. I was ready for anything as long as Jack was going to be there with me. I never liked parties that much but this one is at a frat house so I guess it's alright. Besides, Jack promised we'd have a really good time.
"I sure am. What do I wear though?"

"Well, it's a pajama party so I'm guessing whatever you sleep in?" He smiled at me. Hmm, that would be weird, me just showing up butt naked.

"So... nothing?" I chuckled. He winked at me and got up, heading to the bathroom.

"That would be hot." He said before he stepped out. Yes, that would be hot.

We then watched Home Alone 2, ordered pizza and watched two more episodes of Suits. Good god, my everything started to ache from all the rolling in bed, doing nothing, so by the end of the day I was really looking forward to that party. The fraternity that was hosting it was just around the corner, so we casually had a beer in our room, trying to figure out what to wear.
I ended up picking some pajama shorts and a matching grey tank top. Jack wore black silky shorts (for dudes, yes, they sell that shit) and a dark purple Hugh Hefner like silky thin robe. He looked dashing though, it was funny and hot. He smacked my ass countless times, joking around not knowing how much impact it actually had on me.

The frat house was huge. I wouldn't live in it, it's way too chaotic for me, but I've heard they throw pretty sick parties and people attending them are cool. There were slumber party themed things all over, the girls were only wearing lingerie or something silky and thin. The main accessory was a small pillow or some kind of a plushy toy in combination with sleeping glasses. I didn't bring any, neither did Jack. We were meeting some friends from the dorm there, Jack got us drinks and we were laughing, having a great time until I heard a screeching voice yelling Jacky. I immediately knew who it was. Andie. This time she brought a friend.

"Hey baby!" She said and jumped on him, kissing him like it's the last time they're together. Her friend was pretty shy and was just standing there, awkwardly looking around.

"Hey! Oh, hi Lis!" Jack greeted Andie and her friend.

"Alex meet Lisa, my best friend." Andie said, already slurring, she was a bit drunk already.

"Hey." Lisa shyly said and stuck her hand out. How can this girl be Andie's best friend? They seem very different. For example, Andie was wearing a tiny see-through silky bodysuit and Lisa was wearing a yellow Simpsons printed onesie. Andie was drunk and kinda obnoxious and Lisa's face was a little flushed, while she was giving everyone this sour grin and declining drinks handed to her. She was very cute and definitely a better choice of company than Andie grinding all over Jack, kissing him and licking his face, yelling I love you daddy.
I just couldn't have that.

"Hey Lisa, I'm Alex. Nice to meet you." I shook her hand and smiled.

"You too."

"Wanna grab a drink?" I asked her. She just nodded and automatically I took her by the hand, since the room was packed with people. She followed me to the kitchen that was pretty much empty.

"Your drink of choice iiiiis?" I looked ar her, grinning.

"Sparkling water?" She kind of asked me. I opened the fridge and pulled out two sparkling bottled waters.

"Here you go." She took the bottle, thanking me. "Not a fan of alcohol huh?"

"Yeah, maybe a cocktail or something, beer and all this crap they drink tastes bad." She giggled. I really liked her, like as a friend and all, but she was very easy to talk to and we just kind of clicked.

"Same, I like beer but I am not drinking it from a keg." I said.

"Do you dance?" She asked me. I nodded.

"And how! You wanna go?" Then I remembered how Andy was grinding on Jack, doing all this dirty dancing shit, which made me even more lit. I really wanted to dance with Lisa and if it makes Jack even a little jealous, that's perfectly fine.

"Sure, show me the moves." She said, smiling and leaving her half empty bottle on the counter. After I drank mine, I took her by the hand again and pulled her with me to the dance floor.
When Katy Perry's Bon Appétit started playing we went crazy, jumping all over while trying to look cool and throw in some good moves. When I glanced over to Jack and Andie, I saw him pressed against the wall and her all over him, making out. I don't remember the time I've been this jealous of someone. I wanted to kiss Jack, feel him pressed against me, touch him everywhere. I wanted to be that person he craves. It made me feel helpless and so pissed off so I did something I knew I would regret later on. I cupped Lisa's face, leaned in and kissed her.

I kissed a girl and she liked it. Me on the other hand, I felt horrible.
It wasn't even bad, like I wasn't grossed out or anything... but I knew it was the worst decision I've made so far.