I Hate People Who Are Happy (A Collection of Poems)

I Hate People Who Are Happy

I Hate People Who Are Happy

I hate people who are happy

The way their eyes light up and shine

I hate how they hold hands with one another

And no one ever touches mine

I hate how he talks about her

Like she’s the only girl he sees

I hate how his eyes trail across the room

And never once looks at me

I hate how the world is gleaming

But my stance is marred by shadows

I illuminate my face with fluorescent lights

Carving smiles ‘til they’re hollowed

“Congratulations!”

“That’s wonderful!”

“I’m so happy for you!”

I’m so happy your life is bursting with colors

While mine is beaten black and blue

I’m so happy you found your missing other

That I’m struggling with words to mince and chew

But you don’t notice, do you?

You’re too busy gnashing your lips to see me gnashing my teeth

Too busy grinding your hips to see me grinding my feet

Into the ground, digging a hole, trying to hide under there

Because it’s seeing people happy that I can’t bear

Because it’s seeing people love each other while no one cares

About me

You see

You might be blinded by the stars in your eyes

Too far away on that rocket ship to hear my cries

You won’t remember it as the solar system lights up with you

You will forget it as you embrace the sun

The simple truth that while some people come in twos

Some like me are left with none