I wrote this poem for my schools senior writing contest and I surprisingly took home 1st place.
The poem touches on some heavy stuff so consider this your warning if you are a sensitive individual.
I never said I liked living this way.
Constantly fighting to keep my demons at bay.
But its all I can do because when my demons knock they aren't planning to just crash on the couch for a night they are coming back with the intent to stay.
Today is the day I kick those fuckers out.
I say as I ponder how it would feel to have a piece of lead fly through my head.
I've tried taking it out on my arms but they just bled.
For the past 17 hours I've been lying in bed
Thoughts zooming through my head
With a hint of existential dread.
But I don't wish I was dead because life is beautiful and serene
But it just seems
It just seems that every time I cry out for help I'm being obscene
Like I just want attention but oh did I mention that People fucking love me?
Or so I've been told.
But I don't have anybody's hand to hold
My love cannot be easily sold but I know one thing is for sure
I don't want to die old and alone
I sit cold and impatient waiting by the phone for you to call
Because after all
Life has been a big game of dodge ball and when I get hit I tend to fall
So if you see me wandering the mall
Standing tall
Just know
I never said I liked living this way
But hey
If my demons stay at bay
I just might be okay.
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Coloured thoughts: A collection of poetry & various ramblings of John Wallace
PoetryLike the colours of a rainbow , My mind too can be bright. I dont really have a fixed style of writing. I just go with the flow! I touch on topics of love , thoughts , emotions and even life. Mental health is a large contributing factor in most...