John had been with us now for around 2 weeks and Beth has yet to speak to him. it is strange to see them like this they were so close and now they are like strangers and Beth is full of hate for him.
Beth is out tonight with her awful boyfriend Jake or Josh whatever his name is and i am nervous about it
" what's wrong with you Cyn" John asked
" oh im worried about Beth being out with that boyfriend of hers he is bad news and i have warned her to stay away from him but of course it didn't work"
Me and John have been getting on alot better recently we have actually became good friends who can joke about with each other and it's nice to have some help with Beth
" cyn she will learn the hard way and i know that sounds awful but it's the only way she will learn she won't listen to us"
A few hours has passed and of course Beth is late home again
" oh god John i cannot handle all this worrying about her it's getting to much for me" i say breaking into tears
John grabs Cyn and hugs her when Beth walks into the home and see's John holding Cyn
" did not take you long mother to have him in your clutches again " Beth says laughing she is obviously drunk and is struggling to stand
" Beth do not be silly there is nothing going on between your father and me"
" and that's the problem isn't it. you want him back he has saw sense and left you and your like a dog on heat trying to get in back into bed again"
" don't be so vulgar "
" oh dont act all innocent now mother you know im telling the truth'
" get to your bed and sober up" John shouted at her
" Fuck off John you don't get to tell me what to do"
" oh i do your still a kid and your my kid so i do get to tell you what to do so get to bed"
Beth laughs and sits on a chair opposite John
" how about you fuck off back to America and be with your family and ill do what i want huh"
" no im staying here and spending time with you"
" oh so you are going to abandon your american kid just like you abandoned me poor kid really has no idea how much you will fuck up its life"
" like i fucked up your life right?"
" yeah just like you fucked up my life"
" how did i do that huh please tell me"
' oh you want to know how huh" she screamed
" you take me away from my home my mother and my friends to take me to another country to live with that witch Yoko who actually ignored me to the point i ended up in hospital then you's both ignored me when Kyoko came to visit then just when i felt comfortable around you's all. you started shouting at me and made me go home with mum when all i wanted to do was stay with my daddy then you just gave up on me when i was 9 never answered my calls and while you were ignoring me i saw on the tv you and yoko having nice family days out with Kyoko then you's had a kid and that's when i knew you didn't love me and didnt miss me like i was missing you and that's when you became dead to me because if you were dead you could'nt hurt me again like you always did" Beth shouted finally opening up to her dad and getting rid of her anger that she felt for him
"yes i took you away to america because your mother was in rehab and i thought it best to be with your dad and yes you did end up in hospital because of yoko and im sorry about that we both are and you's were getting on alot better when you left and i started getting angry at you because i was scared that i was going to lose you i loved having you with us i loved putting you to bed and reading and singing to you and have you fall asleep beside me. i loved hearing you call me daddy i loved how you always gave me cuddles and how much you loved to talk and how much you loved your dollies and how you trusted me to protect you from that evil monkey that lived in your dreams. i was scared of losing you when your mum rang and told me she wanted you back i panicked and all i could focus on was fighting for you then one day i overheard you tell May you were scared of me and that broke my heart i didnt want you to be frightened of me so i decided you would be better with your mum you always loved her and she never hurt you or scared you so i gave you to her though it killed me. Then i did always ring you and brought you out on visits but it killed me when you hung up the phone and returned home. i could not handle the pain and i took the cowards way and stopped answering . I missed you every day you must believe that i have always missed and loved you and having you hate me is awful i miss the little daddy's girl that you were"
John could not control the tears that were falling while he told his daughter this
what Beth did next shocked everyone she went over to John and hugged him
" i missed you daddy"
" i missed you to kitten"
