XO Life ; The Weeknd

muse.

I woke up, full of regret. I let myself become weak again. Nothing happened afterwards, we just went to bed. Today, i can't be that person. I'll just cling to Hawk until we get back.

After i had a shower, and got dressed. I was straightening my hair in the bathroom mirror when Amanda joined me. While she was applying makeup, she was just staring at me. Um.

"Im literally so jealous of you, Elle. You're so beautiful without makeup, and your figure is to die for." I didn't expect that from her, she looks like a model herself. Her eyes were brimming with tears,i felt bad. But, the thing is, i haven't done anything. Amanda had dark brown hair that fell down to her waist, she was tall and slim. I always wished i was tall, she's so lucky.

"Amanda, you're beautiful. Saying shit like that will just lower your self confidence." She shrugged and continued applying makeup.

"ABEL!" her voice went straight through me. Wait, what was she doing? He appeared behind us, i continued styling my hair. I swear, my heart was beating so fast everyone in the room could hear it.

"Don't you think Elle is beautiful? answer truthfully.. i don't mind." I looked up and my eyes met with his. I took a deep breath, breaking the awkward silence in the room.

"Amanda..I-" I said turning to face her, I felt Abel's gaze burning my skin and i tried my hardest not to look at him.

"Yes." I averted my eyes and plugged out the straighteners. After last night, i feel so awkward around him. In a way, i wanted him back in my life. It was nice to have someone that loves you, and someone to hold you at night. Someone who understands your pain, but he doesn't know the pain ive experienced.

"Well, that doesn't matter. Amanda you're gorgeous. Im sure, Abel.. finds you beautiful too." I turned around to leave the room, catching Abel's scent as i walked past him. Damn, i missed that.

For the rest of the week, i enjoyed myself. I spent most of the time avoiding Abel, and we didn't speak.

Abel POV: A month without social media, my niggas, and Elle was killing me. But, i knew this was what i need to do to get Elle back.

"Mr Tesfaye, you're free to go. Don't hesitate to return if you are tempted.." I took her card even though i knew i wouldn't need it anytime soon.

Before I left, Amanda told me that she was staying with her parents for a while because she missed them. I get that, i mean she's like 18 or 19..

I knocked at the door, and took a deep breath. What if she turns me away? I hurt her so much, but she always remains civil to me. That's a real ride or die there. I can't promise that i wont hurt her again because i fuck up all the time, but i love her and that's all that matters. A few seconds later, she opened the door and my heart stopped beating.

"Hello?" She had a sexy smirk on her face and i just wanted her right there. She looked amazing, beautiful as always. Her light blonde hair was sleek and framed her face perfectly. It fell to her small waist, which i couldn't help noticing. Her body looked good too, i can see that she has lost weight which was unnecessary, but she looks amazing. Her bare face, deep dark eyes. She looked so beautiful to me right now. She was wearing a cropped vest, with shorts. Tempting me.

"Can we talk?" The smirk never left her face as she stepped aside to let me in. She sat down on the couch and i sat across from her.

"Are you going to explain yourself?" She said with her arms folded. I took a deep breath and the words flew out of my mouth.

Elle POV: I thought Avan was coming over, i guess not. I stared at him, expecting an explanation. I missed his presence, but i didn't want to make another mistake.