thirteen

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Adelaide

(trigger warning)

i thought things were better.
i thought, maybe,
i'd only climb from here.

i never prepared for an avalanche.

but yet again,
                   you never really do.

and it was tears,
and pain,
and hatred.

destroying the leather wrists that i built up for myself.

because the shadows,
they never really leave.

and the demons,
control everything.

and i hated myself.

despite the longing inside that i knew these were bullshit thoughts,

my mind raced with emotion.
                 and i was
          completely numb.

so the metal stained my skin with color,

a layer beneath the leather,
of lines, words, and weakness.

on the bathroom floor,
covered in color,
stained by the thoughts.

and i hated myself.

and I couldn't stop.

and i fucking
hated myself.

a/n

long time no see.
I still love you all,
Trust me.

-soph🌻

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