dear diary [✔️]

entree 4

dear joonie
                  im glad to finally be home, i can cuddled with you all night without nurses kicking you out because you've stayed after visiting times are over. thank you for sticking by me, staying by my side, im sorry i keep hurting you and causing you so much pain. i really don't deserve you. you're too good to me.

i had to see that stupid therapist today. i hate her already, i was only there for an hour and she tried so many times to make me talk. she doesn't know sign language and she wouldn't let me write. how is that going to make me talk, all i wanted to do was cry, she was mean joonie, she kept telling me it had been 4 years and that i should talk, that im weak. am i really weak joonie? am i just weak because im scared? why would i talk though joonie? it was my voice that got you hurt and im just scared it'll happen again, because i couldn't keep my mouth shut.

im sorry
i love you

yoonie

dear yoongi
                            i don't blame you for what happened. you're not weak, you're so brave. lets cuddle, watch stupid cliche romance movies, just us to. lets forget the world around us.

i love you

namjoon