Chapter 7
My feet thudded nosily against the nights dark ground. I gasped for air the tightening feeling in my chest tightened even more. My heart exploded in my chest every beat felt like a gun shot. The cold night’s air nipped at my naked skin. Goosebumps filled my arms. I looked back I could hear his footsteps his breathing he was so close my heart jumped into my throat. I couldn’t breathe I could see him his face that smirk his hair his eyes so capturing. I felt like a lion caught in a trap. I looked ahead again then there in the nights light I saw him. I saw him I watched him. I breathed in relief. My tears rimmed my eyes. He was here to save me. I knew he would be. He’s here. On froze on my spot no longer feeling the fear that I had felt minutes ago. I reached my hand out touch him but some ones weight fell onto my back I fell to the ground roughly my eyes never leaving his figure. Michaels. I reached my hand out to Michael. He was here to help me I just knew it. He had promised me that.
I stopped breathing when I noticed that he was slowly taking a step backwards. He was moving away. Horror filled my veins my heart banged against my ribs. He was moving away. Getting further and further away from me.
“Michael” I cried softly
“Michael!” I cried out louder
“Michael Michael!” I cried loudly my panicked voice that held a hint of the fear I felt.
This isn’t happened again how could it. Suddenly the whole universes weight seemed to be on top of me. Weighting me down disabling me from moving. I felt weak I couldn’t do anything helplessness crept through me. Just like that night I couldn’t do anything no one helped me. I was once again alone. I trashed under the weight uselessly. The tears that once glazed my eyes were now streaming down my face. Helplessness I hated that feeling. I could feel his hand on me it disgusted me I felt dirty.
He flipped my over so that I was on my back. My screams filled the night. No one heard no one here to help me I was alone. I couldn’t take this feeling anymore I couldn’t live with this I wanted away. I could feel his touch on me touching me everywhere making my skin crawl with disgust. And it happened again that night was has been repeated.
I jerked forward sweat glazed my skin. I was shivering terribly. My heart was beating against my chest. Silent tears rolled down my cheeks. I got up feeling dirty. It felt so real it scared me. Dazed I got into the shower fully clothed. I switched the shower on. The cold water hit each drop felt like a bucket filled with ice being dropped on me. I shivered from the cold from fear and from disgust. I couldn’t think properly air couldn’t see properly. I got out of the shower and dropped to the floor. I wrapped my arms around myself. I leaned my head back onto the wall. My teeth chattered ushered tears filled my vision. I stared down at my feet. That dream couldn’t have been a better reminder of that night. Gavin. I hated him with a passion and not any kind of hate but like I wish you hadn’t ever been born.
I didn’t know how long I sat there shivering in my soaked clothes. I wasn’t fully conscience. It’s like the truth had hit me hard to hard for me to be able to stand up straight. I coward back into the wall as a shadow fell on me. I whimpered lowly in fear. I was broken I needed someone to glue me together. Last time I had Michael. But Michael isn’t here no more. I had been independent for the last three years but that dream just seemed to get to me. It knocked me straight off my feet.
“Rox? What are you doing here? Jesus! You’re soaked and you’re shivering come on! Let’s get you to bed.”
His hand came into view. I backed away slightly.
He pulled his hand back I looked up his teeth were clenched tightly his eyes were unreadable. His gaze softened slightly as our eyes made contact he visibly relaxed. I must have looked like a psycho path or a mentally unstable person. He walked over to my right side and he slumped down beside me. I could feel his eyes on me. Calmness took over me. He always seemed to have that effect on me. He made me feel secure and safe. He tugged at my arm that was wrapped around me I dropped my arm to my side. His big warm hand enveloped my cold small one.
“Come on Roxi you don’t want to catch a cold” he said softly as if afraid if he said it too loudly I would shatter like glass. He stood up and pulled me up but my weak legs stumbled under my weight. In a second his arms were encircling my waist to hold me still before I was pulled off my feet and carried me princess style. His warm embrace warmed me up a little. His scent filled my nostrils he smelled of perfume and something I can’t exactly describe. He placed me down on the edge of his bed before turning around and he took out one of his t-shirts and a pair of tracksuit bottoms.
“You always seem to wear men shirts so I don’t think you would mind wearing this. Can you dress on your own? I’ll turn around here” he placed the clothes on my lap before he turned around I took off my soaked clothes before putting on the clothes he gave me.
“I’m done” I croaked I felt numb emotionless. He turned around and walked over to me and took my hand in his.
“Come on lets put you to bed” he smiled at me making my heart flutter in my chest. I walked over to his bed still holding onto his hand laid down on his bed.
“Stay” I whispered softly I wasn’t even sure if he heard it or not “please” he bought the covers over my figure I snuggled in closer. I shut my eyes feeling secure. They bed dipped slightly confirming that Matt had got in I inched closer unnoticeably. There was no t need to as Matt’s arm circled around me pulling me closer to him. His body heat warming me up. I breathed in a sign of relief. I laid my head on his chest as he twirled a lock of my wet hair around his fingers. I relaxed the numb feeling melted away which wasn’t a good thing the numbness was like a wall blocking all the emotions from leaking out and now that it was no longer there they could get out. I felt Matt’s lips on the top of my head. He kissed my head gently before kissing my forehead. That did it for me. Silent tears rolled down my hair line and disappeared into my wet hair.
“Sshhh baby no one’s going to hurt you while I’m here” he whispered softly in my ear.
I wish I wasn’t so easily fooled. I really wish I didn’t believe his words. But I couldn’t not believe him. I don’t know if it’s the way he said it that fooled me or it’s was his gently touch or his sincere tone. But whatever it was he played it right. That night I slept like a baby.
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