Dear Diary

Dear Diary: Twenty-Three

Eren's Point of View: -otaku-trash-

"What's there you wanna know?" The ravenette asked, in which my lips tugged upwards into a smile; I widened my eyes ever-so-slightly, finding my heart turning to mush at the thought of asking so many pointless questions— No.

I wasn't going to ask thoughtless questions, or at least I had hoped I wouldn't. After all, I had an agitating tendency to speak without thinking, which often caused arguments between me and others. Or perhaps arguments with myself: did I even make sense? No, probably not.

Resting my chin upon my palm, I smirked and asked: "Okay, then. What's your name?" I questioned, lightly chuckling as I found myself rather amusing.

"You'll find that out sooner or later, shocked you don't know it already." He responded, in which I raised my eyebrow and tilted my head slightly.

I was confused, to say the least, yet I managed to continued asking questions, though the majority of them were either unanswered or extremely pointless that we both merely disregarded them.

Sighing exasperatedly, I raked my hand through my already-dishevelled chocolate hair and fixated my gaze upon the raven, falling for his clouded eyes that were tinted with a soft blue.

"Seeing as I'm so bad with questions, is there anything you'd like to know about me?" I asked, folding my arms over my chest to ensure I was situated in a comfortable position.

As Levi opened his mouth to speak, I felt a gentle tap upon my shoulder, causing me to turn around sharply.

"Oh, Armin," my eyes softened at the blonde, although he seemed uneasy.

"Uh... Eren what are you doing with him? I-I didn't think you were friends." Armin choked out, seemingly nervous as he twiddled his thumbs anxiously beside his thigh.

"Oh! We're just talking! You can go sit with the others, I'll be here for most of Lunch!" I laughed, in which Armin parted his lips to speak, yet no words seemed to follow. Shaking his head, Armin scurried back to my friends, though I returned my attention back upon the raven, whom continued to remain an utter mystery.

"Oh, yeah, is there anything you want to ask me?" I asked, grinning lopsidedly in attempts to kill the almost-awkward atmosphere, though it merely caused things to grow even more awkward.

Which, in the end, made the situation even more awkward. Perhaps I merely felt that way, after all he acted calm, almost disinterested, yet I gathered he cared more than he showed. Or perhaps that's what I had hoped.

Raising one of his eyebrows, he responded: "Depends.. what do you want to tell me? I won't ask and expect you to answer; so it's up to you, you can tell me everything or nothing." He stated; I found myself growing even more intrigued, yet entirely confused at the same time—I softly hummed, thinking of something interesting to tell him.

After all, I didn't want to appear boring nor dry. After a few moments of silence, I managed to think of something to say.

"Well, there aren't really many things about me to tell. But I'm not all cool and mysterious like you, so I guess I'll tell you about myself!" I exclaimed cheerfully, gaining a few disgusted glances from the students surrounding me, yet I attempted to ignore them, "I'm Eren, obviously, and I guess I like writing... See I'm quite boring, aren't I?"

I laughed nervously, yet decided to continue, "I'm not really used to talking about myself, usually most people just talk about their lives and I never get the chance to talk. Oh well, I guess I just go with the flow, you know? I just... Stumble through life one day at a time!" I tried to sound confident, yet my voice was quivering slightly, though I hoped he didn't notice.

I bit my lip, teeth grazing along the bottom, and I felt my chest grow excruciatingly tight. Ignoring it, I focused my attention upon the raven situated in front of me: although he had a rather 'tough' exterior, his eyes left me breathless every-time I fell into them; most people loved bright green or blue eyes, perhaps even deep brown eyes, yet I adored grey grey eyes; his eyes reminded me of the water during the night, I felt like I was falling into the water every time we met each other's gaze; he was exciting, and I was still in the midst of deciding whether that was a good thing or not.

I decided I wouldn't overthink it—unlike I usually did—and I decided to simply go with the flow.

"I-I'm sorry... I think I talked too much... I-I guess I'm going to go, I need to go to the bathroom." I hurriedly stood up, whacking my knee upon the table as I did so, and scribbled a note for the raven, leaving it beside his arm before I gave him the opportunity to speak.

Mystery: I'm sorry I talked so much. It would be nice if we could talk about you, next time! (:

Scurrying out of the cafeteria, I found myself legitimately running to the bathroom, ignoring glares and questions from the students I ran past in a haze. Once I had reached the bathroom, I clasped my hands upon the sink, feeling a nauseating pain flutter within my stomach. I turned in the taps, cupping my hands and wetting my face with cold water.

The feeling was rather refreshing, yet I knew it would soon fade. Why did I recklessly talk without thinking? If I hadn't have stopped myself, I would have surely told him about the entirety of my life. Including my diary which had gone missing; whoever found it would probably be laughing at how terrible I was with words, in fact they probably wanted to discover whom it belonged to so they could have another excuse to bully someone.

Once I heard the bathroom door open, I jerked my head towards the noise, and my gaze softened upon Mikasa. Though, her expression was cold, which caused me to raise my eyebrow in confusion.

"Eren, what the fuck?!" She hollered, knitting her eyebrows in agitation.

"What?"

"Why the fuck were you talking to Levi?! Do you seriously not know what he's capable of?!" Mikasa yelled, in which I tilted my head in confusion, once again.Gulping thickly, I sighed and turned on my heel to face her.

Gulping thickly, I sighed and turned on my heel to face her.

"Who is Levi? And what the hell are you doing in the boys bathroom?! I'm not a little kid, Mikasa, I can talk to whoever I want!" I groaned, digging my fingers into my covered thighs, finding a ball of anger continuously growing within my mind.

It almost resembled a knot of unwired emotions; emotions I tried to hard not to unleash, even if it caused me a large amount of unbearable pain.

"Eren, you really are an idiot. Levi is the guy you were just talking to, and Armin told me about it, and I saw you run out if the cafeteria and I got worried." Mikasa sighed, walking towards me as she placed her hands upon my shoulders, glancing up towards me with a soft expression.

"Oh, so that's his name? Damn it, Mikasa! I wanted to find out his name from him, Jesus. Thanks for worrying about me, but don't. I can take care of myself, you know?" I stated dryly, taking my hand through my mop of hair as I pondered for a few minutes.

Levi.

Where had I heard that name before?

I shrugged it off.

A/N: (-otaku-trash-)

They wrote so much. :0 It's gonna be hard for me to keep up - Rae.