beating heart 『 jikook 』

十九

ㅡ i'm itching to put the angst but i still need to build their friendship godfuckingdammit ; a/n ㅡ

| 21;40 |
thursday

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jjk:
hyung

donteatjin:
to what do i owe this pleasure

jjk:
oh shut up, hyung

jjk:
we literally just saw each other a few hours ago at rehearsals

donteatjin:
it's already 9:52 at night, kiddo, what on earth do you need?

jjk:
hyung, i know you don't like pjm at all

donteatjin:
jungkook

donteatjin:
i DON'T NOT like pjm and i don't exactly like him either

donteatjin;
i don't hate him since he hasn't hurt you yet. in fact, i like him for making you smile when taehyung, namjoon and i couldn't

jjk:
don't play with me, hyung

donteatjin:
I'M SERIOUS

donteatjin:
for months, all you ever did was mope in your room, only went out whenever you had to record music, appear on talk shows or perform on awards shows

donteatjin:
we didn't hear you laugh a real laugh for a very long time, but ever since you met this pjm, you haven't been doing anything but smile to yourself and laugh at your screen these days

donteatjin:
in other words, jimin is both good and bad for you. whichever one he chooses to be in the end will make me decide whether to like him or not at all

jjk:
wow hyung okay

jjk:
i thought you only saw him as a monster

donteatjin:
i've never talked to him so i really don't know how he's like. i'm not one to judge, just someone here to remind you what's best for yourself. that's what being your hyung is for, isn't it?

jjk:
thank you, jin hyung

donteatjin:
no prob. now, what seems to be the problem?

jjk:
well, my other fans saw me notice him and now they are attacking him and i can't tell them to stop bc that will trigger them even more

donteatjin:
oh, jungkook. i know, i understand. but you can't exactly do anything but pretend you're not seeing what they're doing.

jjk:
are you for real?

donteatjin:
you said so yourself, things will only get worse if you dive in

donteatjin:
besides, if he truly wants to be your friend, he'll go through anything just to be with you

jjk:
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donteatjin:
remember when that happened with taehyung?

jjk:
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donteatjin:
remember when you only started your debut and everyone else was giving you all this love and appreciation all of a sudden, but then they saw how close you are with taehyung and they bullied both of you? remember how you had to explain to everyone that you're not gay and that taehyung is merely your childhood best friend?

jjk:
yea

jjk:
i sounded so pathetic and i hated myself for pretending i wasn't attracted to guys

jjk:
although i was never really attracted to taehyung, the fact that they bullied him for a little while was indeed vexing

donteatjin:
yes

donteatjin:
we all make mistakes, jungkook

donteatjin:
but don't let this be the same one