Remedy

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Zayn Green | Zay

Laying down I opened my eyes, turning to lay on my back as I looked at the ceiling. I looked to my left to see Memo sleeping with her back towards me. It's funny how close we are but so far at the same time. I laid there in deep thought wondering how everything got this bad in just some months.

Everything's changing including me, I didn't like any of these changes but instead of making things better, I'm making them worst. It's like my mind is saying be smart but once my mouth get to moving, I go against everything in my head.

I felt Memo shift taking me out my thoughts as I looked at her. She turned my way and looked at me, I could see the stress taking a toll on her. She didn't look like her self at all, I just wanted to hug her and relieve her of all her stress but I couldn't.

"You okay?" She asked closing her eyes back.

"I should be asking you that."

"Just tired."

"You looked stressed."

"I am." She sighed. "It's not even just with you, it's about school and working. I just don't know how much I could take anymore."

"Everything going to fall into place, just pray on it."

"You right." She nodded then sat up quickly covering her mouth making me rub her back. "What?"

"Felt like I was going to throw up, it went back down."

"You sick or something?"

"Don't know."

"I've never know you to throw up unless you pregnant and that's impossible."

"Nothing is impossible."

"So you saying you pregnant?"

"No, I am not pregnant."

"How do you know that? We gon take a test."

"I'm not taking anything. I've been pregnant two times already, I would know if I'm pregnant ."

"I'm buying you a pregnancy test."

"You will be wasting your time and money, I'm not taking a test."

"If you not pregnant then why can't you take it?"

"Because I don't want to!" 

"You don't want to? Would it even be my baby if you was?" 

"What?" She scrunched her face up.

"I said would it be my baby if you were."

"Wow." She nodded her head and stood up going to the bathroom making me follow her.

"I mean Memo, I've been gone for almost a month or two. You sure-"

"Who else baby would it be? Josiah? Wow, get out my face Zayn."

"Memo, I'm just saying. Why you getting so-"

"Don't just say shit! I'm not a cheater and no matter what we go through, I've never once thought of cheating! Do you see me questioning you?" 

"I give you no reason to."

"So disappearing for days taking pictures with random girls and being on videos with bitches I never heard of don't count? I give you so much respect and trust and you can't even do the same for me."

"I'm always the bad person." I laughed. "You the one with the feelings for ya baby father, contemplating on leaving me for him but yet you not cheating? I suppose to just believe that's my baby."