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Juliana's POV

Current weight- 95.4 lbs

Today i was feeling a little brave. So brave that i wore a dress that rose a little above my knees.

Bad idea. The only thing i got from that was more whispers than usual.

slut.

whore.

she should just kill herself.

slut like her mother.

ew, her legs are so fat.

nobody wants to see that sweetheart.

Every single word hurts, and i always believe them.

I need to hurt myself.

I looked at the clock and saw that I had 30 more minutes until my next class.

perfect.

I run to my locker, where i keep my razors. i grab my sharpest one, and then rush to the old janitors closet. after locking myself in, i roll up my sleeves and begin.

one.

because you are ugly.

two.

because you are fat.

three.

because you will never be good enough.

four.

because nobody will love you ever.

I keep going, knowing that i should stop but i couldn't.

sixty four.

because i wasn't worth it.

**********

I wake up in a white hospital room, and a nurse is in the room.

"oh good, your up! how are you feeling, sweetie?"

my lips and throat are bone dry.

"fine. some water would be nice."

she rushes to get the water for me. after I drink a bit she finally speaks up again

"oh, and a handsome young man is here to see you! he must be your boyfriend, he brought black roses and skittles."

black roses.

skittles.

my two favorite things in the whole wide world, and only one 'handsome young man' would know that.

Carter Wright.

school bad boy, star soccer player, 6 ft 2, tattoos, rides a motorcycle.

or as i know him,

Carter Wright

Biggest softy in the world, best cuddle buddy,

great at forehead and nose kisses, tears up at chick flicks.

The boy who left me.

Even if i did still crave him every night.

Even if he still loves me.

he left.

it was my fault, but he left me.

you don't leave the people you love.

or do you let them go, to see if it was for real?

Carter Wright who took my heart, make it feel warm and fuzzy, got me through the pain, kissed my scars,

and left me there all alone.

Broken.

HEY GUYS ITS MARLEE HERE (who else?)

JUST WANTED TO LET YALL KNOW THAT I PROBABLY WILL NOT BE ABLE TO POST FOR THE WHOLE WEEK BECAUSE TRIP WITH THE CHURCH TO THE DOMINICAN REPUBLIC OR SOME CHIZ! I WILL TRY BUT IDK IF I WILL HAVE CONNECTION OR NOT SO DONT EXPECT ANYTHING BUT I WILL TRY! IF ANYTHING I WILL BE POSTING FOR SURE ON SATURDAY WHEN I GET BACK

ILOVEYOUALL REMEMBER TO COMMENT, VOTE, AND TELL ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS ABOUT THIS LITTLE BOOK BC IDK IM ADDICTED TO FAME AND WATTPAD IS LIKE MY LIFE CURRENTLY?

MULTIPLE UPDATES TODAY FOR SURE MAYBE 3 OR 4?!

MAYBE A CARTER POV?

ALSO I HAVE LIKE 4 IDEAS FOR OTHER STORIES SWARMING IN MY HEAD SO MAYBE YOU MAY SEE PREVIEWS OF THAT IN LATER CHAPTERS IDK

STAY STRONG, YOU ARE LOVED, AND YOU ARE WORTH IT - M