Stay Down

Chapter 15-When Shit Gets Real

My Mother Went And Got Us A Nice Little House And Everything She Bought Us Brand New Furniture And Got Cj Everything He Needed And More

The Agreement Was That Me And Chris Was To Supposed To Pay All The Bills Thats All She Asked For And I Thought That Was Fair Since We Didn't Have To Pay Rent

My Mother Ended Up Staying With Us And Im Not Gon Lie I Liked Having My Mama Here Helping Me With Cj

She Was Teaching Me Things,Cooking,And She Just Made Me Feel Safe

But My Mother Was Calling All The Shots And Chris Couldn't Stand It

He Wanted Her Out But I Wasn't Ready For Her To Leave

Before We Knew It Two Months Had Already Passed And She Was Still Living With Us

I Wasn't Complaining It Was Chris Would Wanted Her To Leave

At This Time We Both Had Jobs I Working At Target And Chris Was Working At Chuck E Cheese And It Was The Longest He Every Kept A Job

While We Worked My Mother Stayed At Home With The Baby So We Had Free Daycare

Everything Was Good…To Me I Guess Thats Why I Couldn't See How Unhappy Chris Was

Coming Home From A Long Day Of Work My Mother Sat On The Couch With The Baby

"Hey Baby How Was Work"My Mother Asked Me As Soon As I Walked In

"It Was Okay I Missed My Baby Tho"I Said

I Grabbed Cj From My Mama And I Sat Next To Her

"Hey Pumpkin"I Said Looking In His Little Eyes

And He's Just Staring At Me This Blank Expression

"Cj Smile For Mommy"I Said As I Smiled At Him

Still A Blank Stare

"What Do You Want For Dinner"She Said

"Oh Mommy You Don't Have Too Cook I Know Your Probably Exhausted…Tonight I'll Make Dinner"I Said

"Child Please When The Last Time You Even Touched A Stove"She Asked Me

"You Hear Ya Maw Maw Talking Bout Me…You Telll Her Yo Mama Is Gonna Whip Up Something Good Ain't Thats Right Cj"I Said As I Kissed His Cheek

And Than Chris Walked In

And He Was Home Too Early And I Just Looked At Him And I Knew He Lost His Job Right Off The Back

My Mother Said "I Didn't Know You Got Off Home This Early Today"

"Me Either"I Said Staring At Him Angrily

"It Was Slow…They Let Me Go Home Early"He Lied

Its A Saturday How Chuck E Cheese Gon Be Slow On A Saturday Thats How I Know His Ass Had Lost His Job

"Well I Hope Your Hungry Your Wife Is Cookin Tonight"My Mama Said

He Walked Over And Kissed Me On My Cheek And Kissed Cj

"Comee To Daddy"He Said To Cj About To Pick Him Up

"No Noo You Been Playing With Those Germ Infested Kids All Day Don't You Dear Pick Up That Baby"My Mama Said

"She's Right Cj Doesn't Need To Get Sick"I Said

He Looked At Me Up And Down

"Than I'll Go Shower"He Said As He Walked Up The Stairs

"You Sure Know How To Pick Em"My Mother Said

"Im Going To Lay Cj Down For A Nap"I Said

"Nap?? You Need To Make Him A Warm Bottle And Get Ready To Give Him A Nice Bath...And Make Sure You Rubbed Him Down With His Calming Lotion Just Like I Taught You"My Mama Said