Heya guys here's the next chapter of the story, Really hope you like it, Leave me your feedback.
Niall's Pov:
"Ireland? Niall no, Niall this is home now it's been home since you were little" My mum exclaimed, I shook my head.
"When I was little I didn't have people kicking my head in for who I was, I hate it here! I wanna go back home!" I stated.
"Niall we can't just pick up and leave. You have school, I have my job, You've got exams coming up, Your whole futures on the line here! We can't go back to Ireland that's just not an option" She exclaimed, Tears were now pouring down my face, I was about to speak when the doorbell rang, My mum stood up. "We'll talk about this later" My mum said before leaving the room. "Cher, Harry how are you?" I heard my mum speak when she opened the frontdoor.
"Were good thankyou, Sorry for just coming over but Harry told me what happened, I was worried" Cher said.
"Don't apologize sweetheart, He's in the sitting room, I think he needs his friends right now, I don't know what's happened fully but he's saying he wants to go back home to Ireland" My mum informed them.
"What?!" They both exclaimed.
"He needs his friends right now, I'll leave you to speak with him, I'll be upstairs if you need anything" My mum said.
"Thankyou Maura" Harry replied, Moments later Cher and Harry came marching in the room.
"Niall you alright?" Cher asked as she dropped down beside me on the couch, I nodded my head as she pulled me into a tight hug. "I'll kill Zayn for this! I swear I will!" She stated.
"That makes two of us, But right now Niall's more important then that asshole" Cher nodded in agreement. "Ni your mum said you wanna go back to Ireland, Why?" Harry questioned.
"Why not? Everyone here knows me as the dirty faggot. It's easy for you guys to say it'll get better, But you don't know that not really. I'm not happy here, I can never be happy here again" I exclaimed, Harry shook his head.
"You don't know that" He stated.
"Exactly, Niall wherever you go you'll still be gay,That's not gonna change when we get on a plane. What happens when some idiots in Ireland make comments? Wherever you go they'll be homophobic people, Where you gonna run to when things go like this in Ireland?" Cher questioned, My eyes were welling up with tears.
"I don't know, I just want it all to stop" I cried out, Cher sighed before pulling me close to her once again.
"Nialler mate, I know you don't believe me when I say it'll get better, I know I don't understand what your going through, But I know someone who does, Someone who's been where you are, He's outside and I want you to talk to him" He said, I looked up at him .
"Talk to who?" I asked.
"You remember my cousin Jay?" I nodded. "Well he came out as gay and he'll know what to say better then we do" Harry stated, I looked down. "Just talk to him Ni"
"It's worth a try babe" Cher said, I sighed before nodding my head in agreement.
"Great, I'll go get him" Harry commented before leaving the room.
"I can't believe he let this happen to you. I can't believe he didn't do a thing about it" Cher spat through gritted teeth as she ran her thumb over cuts.
"He dosen't care, He's made that clear" I mumbled.
"He'll care when I'm finished with him!" Cher stated.
"Niall, This is Jay my cousin, Jay you remember Niall right?" Harry said as he entered the room once again, I looked over at them.
"Yeah, I remember you, How you doing mate?" Jay asked, I shrugged my shoulders. "Can you guys leave us alone for a while?" Jay said, Cher and Harry nodded.
"Yeah, I gotta get home anyway, Niall I'll give you a call later alright?" Cher stated, I nodded my head before giving her a quick hug. "Love you babe" She said before standing up.
"I'll give you a lift back and I'll wait in the car when I get back" Harry said. "Good luck Ni" Harry added, I nodded before waving goodbye to the both of them, I then slumped further into the couch when they left.
"So, Harry tells me you've come out as gay" Jay said.
"Sort of" I mumbled.
"Niall I'm here to help you. I've been where you are now and I know it's not an easy time. I wanna help out the best I can but I need you to actually talk to me" Jay explained, I sighed.
"I didn't willingly come out. I guess Harry told you the full story?" Jay nodded. "I didn't want people finding out that way, I don't think I wanted anyone finding out. I'd only just processed what I was feeling inside. I spent so long being afraid and confused, My bestfriend that I'm inlove with walked out on me now I have all this to deal with, I've got people making comments about me at school, I'm being called a dirty faggot, I'm being used as a punchbag, I didn't want any of this" I explained, Jay nodded his head.
"Figuring out what you are is a confusing time, But coming out as gay is even harder, It's hard for everyone no matter what age they are. Wherever you are there's homophobic people around you, Most of those people are unfortunately guys, Guys who think they can beat the gay out of you. When homophobic people picture a gay guy they think of something feminine, They think were gonna try something with them, There all to stupid to realize none of that's true, Just because we come out as gay that dosen't mean everything about us has changed" Jay said.
"Whey they found out I was gay they made comments like back against the wall boys, Today I got my first beating for being gay. I feel so alone, I've got Harry, Cher, Lou and Li but I still feel like I'm on my own" I mumbled.
"I know how that feels. When I came out as gay I got the holy hell beaten out of me. I had nobody, I had no friends to support me, I was alone. That was until I met this guy, He opened my eyes and made me realize being gay wasn't a crime, It wasn't something I needed to be ashamed of. If people can't accept you for who you are that's there problem. Right now it dosen't seem like it'll get better, You don't see the light at the end of the tunnel, But it is there, It takes time but if you keep going and pushing through the hate you'll see it, As long as you don't give up that light won't stop shining" Jay explained, I looked down.
"I just wanna be me, I wanna be me without people judging me or looking down on me" I whispered.
"Then you can't give up, Trust me Niall it isin't always like this mate. You've got a family and friends that love you, They'll get you through it, And as for Zayn the guy you fell inlove with, He'll realize what an asshole he's being, And you never know by then you might of realized you can do better then him, Don't lose sleep over somebody who walks away when you need them the most"
Everything Jay said made sense to me, Hearing from someone who's been there, Hearing him say it'll get better gives me that smallest bit of hope. I still wanna leave, I still wanna run but I can also hear Jay's words echoing around my mind.
'Be yourself and stay true to who you are, Walk with your head held high, You've done nothing wrong, All your doing is being yourself it's not a crime, Being yourself isin't against the law so don't act like your doing something wrong'
I still feel torn, But I know I can't run, If I run I'll be running forever. That evening when Jay left I walked him to the door and thanked him for everything, He pulled me into a tight hug and told me he knew I'd be ok. As I closed the frontdoor I failed to notice the figure standing by the trees.
