Cold (Jauregui/ you)

Signing the contract

Y/n's POV
I just signed with synco records I'm 18 years old but the only difference with me is I'm not all happy and jumpy I'm cold and distant I don't like people in because of my past no one could love me if they knew my past only one person knows and that's Simon cowell I had to tell him I just finished signing the contract he said "y/n you'll be going on tour with 5th harmony do you have songs to record?" I nodded and held up 6 fingers he said "wow okay let's go to the studio" on the way there we bumped into fifth harmony we were right outside the studio I heard Simon said "guys that would be y/n shes your opening act for your tour but he careful with her she's very very closed off don't push her" they came in and Simon said "y/n which song first?" I gave the producer the words he said "I have a track just for this I went in the booth I put on my head phones and started

Why did you leave me here to burn?
I'm way to young to be this hurt
I feel doomed in hotel rooms
Staring straight up at the wall
Counting wounds and I am trying to numb them all
Do you care do you care?
Why don't you care?
I gave you all of me
My blood, my sweat, my heart and my tears
Why don't you care why don't you care?
I was there I was there when no one was
Now you're gone and I'm here
I have questions for you
Number one tell me who you think you are
You got some nerve trying to tear my faith apart (I have questions for you)
Number two why would you try and play me for a fool? I should never ever ever trusted you ( I have questions )
Number three, why weren't you, who you swore that you would be?
I have questions, I got questions haunting me
I have questions for you
I have questions for you  (I have questions)
My , my name was safest in your mouth
And why'd you have to go and spit it out?
Oh your voice it was the most familiar sound
But it sounds for dangerous to me now
I have questions for you (He-ey)
Number one tell me who you think are you
You got one nerve trying to tear my faith apart
( I have questions )
Number two why would you try and play me for a fool?
I should never ever ever trusted you
I have questions for you
I have questions for you
I have questions for you (I have questions)
I have questions for you
Do you care do you care?
Why don't you care?
I gave you all of me
My blood, my sweat, my heart and my tears
Why don't you care why don't you care?
I was there I was there when no one was
Now you're gone and I'm here

By the time I was done I had tears rolling down my cheeks I wiped my face and drunk some water i went out the booth I raised an eyebrow at them Simon said "wow um I didn't know you could write like that" "what'd you girls think?" They said "you're really good what's your inspiration?" I tensed and said "my past trust me you're not ready to hear about it no one is" I went to another page I gave it to the producer he smiled and said "I got the perfect one for this" I went back in the booth and I started

Four years old with my back to the door
All I could hear was the family war
Your selfish hands always expecting more
Am I your child or just a charity ward?
You have a hollowed out heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it but it's hopeless
Hopeless you're hopeless
Oh father please father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh father please father
Put the bottle down for the love of a daughter
Oh
It's been five years since we spoken last
And you can't take back
What we never had
Oh I can be manipulated
Only so many times
Before even "I love you"
Starts to sound like a lie
You have a hollowed our heart
But it's heavy in your chest
I try so hard to fight it but it's hopeless
Hopeless you're hopeless
Oh father please father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let you go
Oh father please father
Put the bottle down for the love of a daughter
Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?
How you push me out of you world,
Lied to your flesh and your blood
Put your hands on the ones that you swore you loved?
Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?
How could you throw me out of your world?
So young when the pain had begun
Now forever afraid of being loved
Oh father please father
I'd love to leave you alone
But I can't let go
Oh father please father
Oh father please father
Put the bottle down
For the love of a daughter
For the love of a daughter

I finished and walked out the booth Simon said "well done y/n you sound Great" I said "you want more up beat?" He said "yeah please" I nodded and flipped the pages I found it and gave it to my producer he smiled I went in the booth and started

Don't don't play with her don't be dishonest (ayy)
Still not understandin this logic (ayy)
I'm back and I'm better (and I'm better)
I want you bad as ever
Don't let me just let up
I wanna give you better
Baby it's whatever
Somebody gotta step up
Girl I'm that somebody so I'm next up
Be damned if I let him catch up
It's easy to see you're fed up
I am on a whole nother level
Girl he only fucked you over cause you let him
Fuck him girl I guess he didn't know any better
girl that man didn't show an effort
Do all I can just to show you you're special
Certain it's your love that holds me together
Lately you say he been killin the vibe
Gotta be sick of this guy
Pull up skrr get in the ride
Left hand is steerin the other is grippin your thigh
Light up a spliff and get high
Shawty you deserve what you're been missin
Play this song for him tell him "just listen"

I walked out and said "didn't know I could rap did you?" Simon said "no damn y/n what else can you do?" I said "um hold on I have this song I wanna create the sound for I made the track melody I was happy with it I looked at my producer I said "listen to it and read the lyrics" he smiled and said "this is perfect for it to record it" I said "last one Simon" I went in the booth and started

I met this girl late last year
She said "don't you worry if I disappear"
I told her I'm not really looking for another mistake
I called an old friend thinking the trouble would wait
But then I jumped right in a week later returned
I reckon she was only looking for a lover to burn
But I gave her my time for two or three nights
Then I put it on pause until the moment was right
I went away for months until our paths crossed again
She told me "I was never looking for a friend maybe you could swing by my room around ten baby bring the lemon and a bottle of gin we'll be in between the sheets till the late AM"
Baby if you wanted me then you should have just said , she's singing
Don't fuck with my love
The heart is so cold
All over my home
I don't wanna know that babe
Don't fuck with my love
I told her she knows
Take aim and reload
I don't wanna know that babe
And for a couple of weeks I only wanna see her
We drink away the days with a takeaway pizza
Before a text message was the only way to reach her
Now she's staying at my place and loves the way I treat her
Singing our aretha all over track like a feature
And never wants to sleep I guess that I don't want to either
But me and her we make money the same way
Four cities two planes the same day
And those shows have never been what it's about
But maybe we'll go together and just figure it out
I'd rather put on a film with you and just sit on a couch
But we should get on a plane or we'll be missing it now
Wish I'd have it written down the way that things played out
When she was kissing him how I was confused about
Now she should figure it out while I'm sat here singing
Don't fuck with my love
The heart is so cold
All over my home
I don't wanna know that babe
Don't fuck with my love
I told her she knows
Take aim and reload
I don't wanna know that babe

I walked out the booth I looked at Simon then there was a knock at the door it was the assistant she said "mr.cowell there's an angel summers here" we both tensed up I felt my cold heart freeze over again I looked at Simon he nodded loud enough I said "she better be out of this building in 5 seconds before I do it myself" I said "I'm done for the day they can come with me if they want to" I looked at them "are you coming?" They nodded and followed I got in my Range Rover when we got to my house they were shocked at the size I said "you're about to meet someone that is my world please be nice to him" They nodded Lauren looked a little jealous I was confused to why? I walked in I yelled "Jacob come here!" He said "MOMMYY!!" I picked him up he hugged me I said "I missed you little buddy" he kissed my cheek and said "I love you mommy" i said "I love you too bud!" He looked behind me he said "momma who are those girls?" I put in him down we all bent down to his level I said "that's Dinah, that's Normani, that's ally, that's Camila and that's Lauren their gonna be with us the next couple months can you go give them hugs?" He ran and gave them hugs he said "hi my names jacob and I'm 5" they all smiled he came over to me and whispered "momma their very pretty do they know that?" I said "idk bubba go tell them just so they know" he went to them he stood in front of all five of them he said "you all are very pretty did you know that?" Lauren said "awe no buddy but we do now" I picked him up I said "okay come on bed time someone wants to meet you tomorrow" he said "really who?" I said "you'll have to wait and see buddy good night I love you" I kissed his forehead I heard someone say "are you okay?" I jumped and I looked at them said "wow I forgot you were there for a moment sit down please"