Tyler's POV
I open my eyes, look around the room and realise i'm at Josh's house. He must have taken me home yesterday after... what happened. I turn around so i'm on my belly and squeek in pain, waking up Josh beside me in bed. I just can't pull myself together so I start crying into the pillow. I'm such a pathetic crybaby, I hate it.
"Mornin ty, hey...hey...don't cry it's okay i'm right here" he whispers, gently rubbing my back.
"It..it hurts so much joshie" I cry.
"Where does it hurt? I want to make it better." He says, his voice raspy.
"My..my mhm..." I whisper embarassed, not wanting to tell Josh that my butt burns like hell. But he already understood.
I'm lying on my stomach, arms crossed over my head and my head burried in the pillow because i'm really embarassed. He gently strokes my lower back and butt. It's relaxing, even though it's embarassing. I mean, we never really did anything more than him fingering me and bj's, hand jobs, and grinding. We were both always kind of shy. After a while I slowly started to sit up, still in pain but not as much anymore.
"Morning Josh.. thanks for taking me to your house" I say, rubbing my eyes.
"Of course, I would not have let you stayed alone in your house after that!" He said, kissing my cheek.
"How are you feeling?" Josh askes.
"I don't know, the pain is better but I can't stop thinking about what happened." I say, looking down.
"I know. I'm so sorry it happened. I wish I could have done something. But my stupid anxiety held me from being there earlier." He answered sadly.
Josh's POV
The rest of the day, we spent watching movies and cuddling. Tyler really needed that, I watched him at some point and he zoned out, tears forming in his eyes again. It's my fault. All my fault. He's gonna get worse again. I'm so scared he will do something again. He has been clean for 3 weeks, the scars on his stomach are still red, but not bloody anymore. And then theres me... I don't blame him, but I did start cutting myself.
Now i'm wide awake, Tyler asleep next to me, cuddling into my side. I wish I could have helped him. It all would not have happened if I would have been there! I'm such an idiot. It's all my fault! I have to punish myself for doing this, I carefully get out of bed, trying not to wake up Tyler. I walk to the bathroom and lock it.
Trigger warning: self harm and depression. Please stay safe everyone❤|-/
I get out my razor blade and cut into my left, inner, lower arm. It hurts and I hiss in pain, but I have to do this, I deserve this. I'm a fuck up. I make a whole bunch of cuts, then wrap a bandage around it and pull the sleeve of my hoodie over it, heading back to bed. I finally fall asleep.
Suddenly, I wake up, everything is dark, it's the middle of the night. Why did I wake up? I hear Tyler mumbling words, he's sobbing, boxing into the pillow with his fist. He's having another nightmare. I gently pull him closer to my chest, he's now totally freaking out. Screaming, kicking around him with arms and legs until he finally wakes up, sitting up and completely out of breath. He puts his head into his hands and breaks down, hysterically sobbing. I sit up and pull him so he lays down again, he curls up into a ball almost amd continues to sob. I pull him into my arms and hold him tightly while the sobbing quiets down. My poor Tylee, he cried himself to sleep. I feel even worse and fall asleep, still holding Tyler.
Tyler's POV
I wake up, a bit sweaty and dried tears on my face. Josh moves next to me, and opens his eyes sleepily.
"Morning Jish" I say, giving him a little smile.
"Morning Tyty" He says sleepily.
"I'm gonna go for a shower, see you in a bit?" I ask.
"No, me too" he grinns. I grin back at him. We get out of bed and head to the shower. Our first shower together! Then I see Josh's left arm.
"Josh...? Why..." I ask sadly, pointing to his arm.
"Ty... I.. i'm sorry. I just...I felt so bad and it was all my fault so... I deserved this." He answers sadly, looking down.
"Don't be sorry. But please. Please don't do it, it's not your fault what happened to me." I say, hugging him in the shower, while the water rains down on us.
"I can't promise anything, just like you but.. i'll try." He mumbles
Maybe some slight smut😏
After a while, I washed Josh's hair and then he suddenly says;
"Um... I eh... i'm done... take your time in here, i'll uh...be in my room..uh I guess, um... see you" he stutters, jumping out of the shower, grabbing a towl and running to his room. On his way out I see... Josh is hard. I grin and can barely hold myself from laughing.
I get out too, dry off, put on some clean boxers and a shirt and head out to Josh's room. I'm not in any pain anymore, I think to myself. Only the bruises are still visable. Right before I enter Josh's room I hear quiet little moans coming from inside. Oh god, I think, he's jerking off. Hearing those moans, I feel a weird, hot and tingling feeling coming from down there. I enter the room and almost walk back out. On the bed: Josh, naked. On his back, legs widely spread with one hand making quick little thrusts with two fingers in and out of his hole. With his other hand jerking off. He jumps when he sees that i'm in here, quickly trying to cover himself with a blanket, his face bright red. I just stand there, in shock, slowly walking over to him, I can now clearly feel my hard member in my tight, black boxers.
I climb into bed, pulling my shirt off, pulling Josh's blanket out of his grip and sitting on his lower stomach. He inhales sharply, now he's the one in shock. I lean forward and kiss him, he immediatley kisses back.
Josh's POV
After a while of making out, I pull away and turn us around so i'm on top of Tyler and kiss him again. He lets out a loud moan and kisses my neck, sucking some hickeys. My hands gently make their ways down to his boxers, pulling them down, making Tyler's member jump out and against his stomach. I continue to make out with him, and start rubbing his cock with my hand at the same time. He moans louder and my precum is leaking onto the sheets already.
I give him a cheeky smile, as I kiss my way down his chest, ribs and stomach, sucking on his skin lightly. As I reach his cock, I begin licking my way up and down his shaft, teasing him.
"Ohhhhh Josh, oh yes please, ohhh don't tease me" he moans, as I take his cock into my mouth and begin bobbing my head faster and faster, Tyler is a moaning mess.
"Joshhhh... oh god josh.. yes.. oh.. ah i'm gonna... i'm gonna ohhhh" he moans, clearly very close. He bucks his hips up and explodes into my mouth, I swallow everything. After he's done I kiss his cock and climb back up to Tyler's lips and we contiue making out. He grabs my very hard, throbbing and leaking member and starts to rub it. Going faster and faster with his little fist, up and down my shaft driving me crazy. I moan louder.
"Tyler... omg please, i'm close... ohhhh i'm gonna" I moan, he suddenly stops, my breath hitches.
"I'm mean, arn't I" he grinns
"Pleaseeeee tyler... oh please" I whine, he kisses me on the lips once more and then I feel my cock in his mouth. I don't last long, Tyler's quick little toungue drives me crazy and I cum in his mouth with a loud moan. He swallows everything as well and comes back up, we cuddle, naked and smiling.
Author's note
Well helloooo there, a little smut at the end for the sinners😏 Hope ya'll enjoyed this.😊🤘🖤
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