Do you know what it's like growing up in a house with a man you don't know?
Calling him, "Daddy" but waiting for a love he wont show.
You'll never know the pain that it brings, wanting to hear "i love you" more than anything.
But i guess its hard to love when love makes no sound.
I could see the hate in your face when you found me drugged out on the ground.
But that's okay, i don't need you because i have the perfect mother.
She loves me unconditionally, loves me like no other.
Even though she never fought for me i forgive her.
She's weak, cant hold the pain, that's why you treat her the way you treat her.
Never beat her like you beat me so i guess i should say thank you.
And although you ruined me its still hard to hate you.
You welted not only my skin but my hearts shell.
You desolated my remains and my soul as well.
I tried to end my life before you could, Battered and scared , i knew one of us would.
I don't know what hurt worst, your hand or my blade.
My scars haunt me with memories but one day they'll fade.
I woke up in a hospital bed that night.
Thought i'd see your face but you were no where in sight.
It hurts because i love you and i want you around.
But these 18 years made me realize what a bastard i am.
