This is me

Making a change

Scott
" I'm telling you Scott, kourtney doesn't want you back. It's time you move on, your making a fool out of yourself with all this drinking and taking random girls to places you know kourtneys going to be at it's sad we don't want this for you it's time you move on like kourtney has, if not for yourself do it for your kids" Kim yells. " and you don't think I know that I know I messed up I just can't help it I love her and it's hard to just walk away from her we have kids I want us to be a family and I mean a real family one that lives together in one house not where they go from my house to her and so on" I yell back. "Scott I hear you and I understand what you are saying but you don't love kourtney because if you did you wouldn't have done all the things that you did do her. You love her for the kids she gave you but you don't really love her and I get that you want the Fairytale wife and kids living under one roof with the dad, but you have to understand that you messed up and that fairytale is most likely never going to happen for kourtney and you. So please listen to me when I say this, move on Scott stop causing drama and problems when there doesn't have to be. You didn't get the happy ending kourtney, but that doesn't mean you can't get it with someone else" Kim calmly says. " you know your right I should stop all this stuff it isn't getting me anywhere with her, and she's told me we're not getting back together ever so maybe your right Kim I need to move on and make a change in my life and not just for me but for my kids I want to start fresh" I tell her. " that's good Scott I know it's not going to be easy at first but it does get easier along the way and your broken heart will start to heal" Kim says. " thanks I really needed this talk and if you don't mind can you don't tell this to anyone else" I say to her as I walk to her front door. " you got it Scott I won't say anything bye have a good day" she says leaning in for a hug before I walk out the door

i feel like a new man, like nothing can stop me. I'm on top off the world. I'm going to make a serious change in my life and for once I mean it. I made it home and look at the house for once I could see all the bad memories that took place in this house and the regrets I had. All the times I was drunk off my ass, all the times I contemplating taking my own life (I stilling couldn't say the S word even after I tried it so many times) I knew I couldn't stay here anymore or there wouldn't really be a change but first I had to deal with kourtney