Here We Go Again {Jalex}

Chapter 24

Alex's POV:

Having the day with Jack to just unwind and be us for a little while was exactly what we both needed. With all the crazy drama of the last couple months just going to school every day was extremely taxing.

I basically moved into Jack and Zack's room after the big blow up night. They didn't mind at all so neither did I. Things got a tad bit more crowded in Jack's room, but I think I had an idea to change that that I'd ask him about later.

Aside from that, I really just wanted to avoid that looming discussion with Vic for as long as possible so I made sure to only retrieve my stuff when I knew he was gone. Unfortunately, I didn't account for Kellin.

One day I was sneaking in to grab some clothes and some of my books when I opened the door to find Vic's new/old boyfriend sitting on his bed. Awkward.

"Oh, hi," Kellin said, looking up from his phone. "I, uhm, I can leave if you- if you want."

I kind of just stood in the door way scratching my head. I could be a dick and make him leave, or I could be nice and not make it a big deal. Damn, I must really be growing up. "No, you're fine. I just need to grab some of my stuff."

"Oh, okay," he said meekly, sitting back against the head board. I nodded and went to gather my things. I grabbed some underwear, my music notebook, and a couple more things for now. I wasn't trying to idle and make this even more awkward for us. It was bad enough as it was.

As I was gathering the last bit of stuff I was taking I felt him staring at me. The tension in the room grew increasingly more noticeable. I didn't know if I should say something or if he was going to say something or what. It was kind of killing me.

Right as I was about to cut right through the terrible silence he started to talk.

"I'm sorry," Kellin blurted out of no where. "I didn't mean to come back and fuck up your relationship and get in the middle of all this drama. I know I only made it worse."

"Really Kellin," I said calmly, trying to keep it as brief as possible. I'd already had this conversation with Jack and there was no way I was going to have it with Quinn. "It's alright."

"No, it's not," he insisted. "We all kind of fucked up right? I mean none of us handled the situation like we should've. None of us are innocent in this."

I stopped putting things in my bag to turn and look at him. "What's your point?"

"My point..." he slumped a little then sat up straighter, sucking in a deep breath, "My point is we all fucked up, but we're adults now. It's not high school anymore. I don't want there to be tension between us or hard feelings because I've never had anything against you guys. This was all just some stupid mix up."

I looked at him incredulously. Some mix up? What is that supposed to mean? Oh, sorry I accidentally got with your boyfriend, let's trade?

"God I probably sound insensitive," Kellin massaged his forehead.

"A little bit."

"I'm not trying to invalidate anything you guys had, I'm just trying to make what we did right... in some way." Fuck, I swear if this kid asks to do a four way I'm going to punch the lights out of him. "I want to end it. All the bullshit. I don't want Vic to be mad and I don't want you guys to have hard feelings. I want closure."

I sighed. "Your point, Kellin. You haven't gotten to it yet. What? You want my forgiveness? You want me to say it's okay?"

"Listen," he pleaded, "go out to dinner with me and Vic one night, bring Jack. We can make amends and talk like grown ups. Maybe after that it won't be so... awkward."

"Or maybe it'll turn into a screaming match in the middle of a restaurant, then be even worse."

"Don't let it go that far. Walk away if you get too mad. I'll handle Vic."

I rolled my eyes, "Sure, you'll handle him." I scooped up the stuff I was taking with me and started drifting towards the door. I really wasn't liking how this was turning out. I opened the door and stepped halfway out, but of course Kellin wouldn't let it go.

"Tomorrow night 7 o'clock, where ever you want. Are you in?"

I turned back sighing and met his eyes, "Did you guys really fuck in my bed?"

Kellin's face flushed a deep red color and he fidgeted with his hands. "Um, no. I think he just said that to piss you off."

I nodded slowly, "I'll talk to Jack about it."

He looked at me with bright eyes, childlike eyes. "Really?"

I nodded again. "Fuck it," I said, walking out of the room.

I would talk to Jack about it, what could it hurt? I didn't think that it would go the way Kellin hoped it would because Vic seemed to be very pissed at me. I wasn't very fucking happy with him either. We were both hypocrites.

To my terrifying surprise, Jack was out in the hall way staring at me with a look that could kill. If he hadn't scared me half to death I would've laughed. I had the feeling he was listening in on the conversation because he was looking shocked but also laughing. Like he could not believe what he'd just heard.

My suspicions were proven correct when after I shut the door he let out a snort and said, "We're gonna go on a double date?"

"You're so nosy, you know that?" I chuckled, ushering him into the room across the hall.

He fell back on his bed and looked at me with an amused expression. "So really, we're going out to eat with them?"

"No," I said, putting my things wherever I could find space. "That's crazy. You know how bad that would be?"

Jack raised an eyebrow, "Really? I was thinking it might be good for you. Just to get those feelings out there once and for all. Maybe you'll feel better. If it goes really bad, then we can just joke around the whole time. And," he said, grabbing my hand and pulling me towards him so he could place a gentle kiss against it and grin, "if it goes really really bad, then we can actually go fuck on Vic's bed."