So many firsts.
First time in an MA movie.
First time in a sex shop.
First time in trouble at school.
First cuts.
First gay kiss outside of spin-the-bottle.
First time running away.
First time in hospital.
First girlfriend.
First relationship status.
First time eating in at Char's.
Second time late.
First time making out.
First time I didn't hide.
First psychiatrist.
First antidepressants.
First suicidal thoughts in a long time.
First time I tried to change.
First time I took a stand.
First time I spoke up.
First time in love.
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to the devil, from a ghost.
Poetrya mismatched anthology of poems I wrote over the course of the year that I wasn't really me. Very edgy but okay from a literary perspective.