Looking for salvation

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Two days has passed and she's finally getting out of hospital although her fever and flu hasn't recovered and her bruises aren't gone yet and her wounds are still recovering. As she's packing her things, manager Kang walked in with B.A.P. "We came to bring you." Youngjae said while rubbing the back of his neck while smiling awkwardly. *Great..* She sighed as her mouth made a frown which is being covered by the mask.

"Do you need any help?" Jongup offered while smiling his usual smile but she just shook her head and refused his kind offer. Just when Himchan wanted to scold at her, Yongguk hold him back and shook his head. "Let her take her own time." Yongguk said and Himchan obeyed while groaning in frustration. "Umm.. We'll go to the cashier, alright?" Daehyun asked and she shook her head. After she packed her things, she walked to the cashier and paid for the hospital bills. *How many part-time jobs do i have to work to earn back this costly hospital bill?* Kira wondered as she sighed.

After she paid, she walked out and saw a van waiting outside. "Get in, you are moving in with us starting now." Youngjae said and she nodded. She waited for the members to get in first and she got in last. *Wait.. Why can't i stay with my members instead? Weird..* She wondered, confused. "So.. Kira, do you ever talk?" Himchan asked,, very straight-forwardly, shocking them but Kira ignored him and tuned out their voices as she looked out the window, hand on her chin while thinking of all the jobs she could do to earn back the money.

Once she reached their dorm, she stood by the door and went in once all the members entered. We have two rooms and since we all sleep together in a room, you can use that room." Yongguk said and she nodded. "The staffs have already put your things inside so make yourself comfortable and of you need any help, just come to us." Daehyun said and she nodded and locked the door. She quickly went to a corner and took out the pen-knife from her hoodie pocket and looked at it. *What am i doing?* She wondered as she kept staring at the pen-knife. *Joy.. Baby.. What should i do? I'm confused.* She said as her head started to hurt her. *Eomma.. Help.. Me.* She thought and fall to the ground.

When she woke up, she saw that she's lying on the floor. *Oh yeah.. My fever's not yet gone.* She thought and when she looked out the window, it's dark. *Did i sleep till night?* She wondered as she sighed. After bathing, she wore her mask over her mouth and pulled u[ the hoodie till it covered her face and zipped up her hoodie, took her haversack, put the pen-knife in her hoodie pocket and went out. "Where are you going?" Youngjae asked once he saw her coming out and she ignored him. "Hyung, she's going out!" Youngjae shouted and Himchan walked out from the kitchen. "Come back before midnight, is it okay?" Yongguk asked, cutting in before Himchan started nagging and bombing her with questions and Kira left after nodding. 

"Hyung, why did you let her go?" Zelo asked, curious. "Junhong's right. She's sick, We have to take care of her." Himchan said and Yongguk sighed. "She still doesn't trust us like how she does to Joy. Let's take it slow, step by step and maybe, she'll trust us." Yongguk said and they nodded.