Show me your broken heart and all your scars,
Baby I'll take, I'll take, I'll take, I'll take you as you are,
I'll take you as you are,
Show me your broken parts to know your flaws,
Baby I'll take, I'll take, I'll take, I'll take you as you are
"She see money all around me, I look like I'm the man, yeah, but I was down and out like last week, tell me where have you been? You came out of hiding, girl, don't act like I'm your man. You just a fan, you don't hold rank, don't hold no rank," Vanessa and I sang terribly before busting out laughing. "Y'all dumb," Lamar said as he filmed us which made us laugh more. "I love this highlight, Kiki," I told Kiana, our makeup artist, as I looked at myself in the mirror. "That's Fenty for you," Kiana said with a little laugh then continued Crystal's makeup.
Tonight was our first show of the tour and we were in Montreal. I was nervous but so excited especially because the girls and I had so many fans already. Abel posted a short video two days prior on Instagram of us during a rehearsal with the caption 'XO GIRLS🔥' and tagged us all. Some people were being a little rude but most of it was love. People had been following and DMing us on social media everyday. Lamar said we shouldn't answer them back so of course, we didn't.
"Okay, here we have Jayda," Lamar said. "Hi," I waved at the camera. Lamar had been filming since we arrived at the Montreal venue for a documentary about Abel. He says someday they'll release it to give some insight on Abel and everyone that makes up the XO family. "How are you feeling about tonight with it being the first time you girls perform on the tour?" Lamar asked. "I'm so excited but so nervous. It's hella people out there so I don't wanna fuck up," I admitted. "Don't fall off stage... or shit on yourself," Lamar said making me laugh. "No but y'all gone kill it. Plus y'all look good," Lamar complimented. "Thank you, Lam," I said with a smile.
The girls and I did look amazing in our outfits for the first set. We were wearing a black, long sleeved fishnet crop top with a black bandeau top to cover our boobs, black, high waist underwear that had fishnet trim, and black, open toed mesh heels. For makeup, we all had black eyeliner, false lashes, and lip gloss (red lipstick wasn't cute on me). Our hair was curled to look more dramatic when we flipped it.
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"Can you take a picture of me?" I asked Lamar when he put the camera down. "Yeah let's go in the hallway," Lamar responded. Since we got on the jet, the girls and I have got to know the XO crew and became close to the men. I honestly thought they were all just sexist idiots because let's be honest, that's how they're portrayed. They're all actually really nice, funny, and respectful to us. I don't know if it's because they got to know us but still. They're very playful but also serious about their jobs and the family they've created.
When we got into the hallway, of course there were people everywhere which meant I got stares from various men walking and standing around. Some didn't really notice me while others made it very known they seen me. Not really caring, I stood against the wall and posed with my hand on my hip and giving a small smirk. I turned my back to the camera but looked over my shoulder with my tongue poked out. "Oh okay, I see you tryna' be all sexy and stuff," Lamar said making me laugh. "Shut up and keep going," I said. Lamar took a few more pictures before giving me my phone back. "I like these," I told Lamar as we both reviewed the pictures. I smiled at the off guard he took of me laughing. "That's what I do," Lamar said.
