My Life | Hariana | Book #1 (REWRITING)

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

*Ariana*

I slammed the door shut and slid down against the wall burying my face in my hands. I pulled my knees towards my chest and rocked back and forth as my bottom lip trembled and tears streamed down my face. I tried to scream out at the top of my lungs but it just made things harder so I tugged at my hair and continued to sob loudly.

I don't hate Harry and I never will. But it's best if I stay out of his way, Im no good for him. Im always causing him some sort of problem and I cant keep being that person. I love Harry so much but admitting it wont do us any good we will just go back to the way it was before. Anyways he has Taylor I mean she's a great girl, maybe bossy and boring but still a great girl.

I was trying hard not to cry and give in when I saw the vulnerable look on his face. He had this look that would taunt me forever and as the words flew out my mouth his face became pale, his eyes widen and his smile turned into a frown. You could see right through his eyes that he was breaking down inside and it will soon effect the outside. He was hurt, in pain completely lost of words all because of me.

I never wanted to be the reason for his heart break but I am. I caused Harry to feel unwanted and unloved while none of the words I spoke are true. I built up the confidence slowly and finally told him that I hated him so he can live a healthy and peaceful life instead of having me around. I wanted Harry to be mines again but we and everyone else knows that getting back together is starting a whole new war.

A war with us against the world. I have to move on. For him Im doing this for him.

"Ariana?"

I got onto my two feet and stripped off my sweatshirt leaving me in a spaghetti strap tank top. I quickly wiped my tears and the smudged make up.

"Yes?" My voice came out shaky and weak.

"Are you okay?" He rushed towards my side and embraced me into a hug.

I grasped his shirt in my tiny hands forming a fist as tears fell against his shirt leaving black stains. He tighten his grip around my waist and rubbed small circles against my back. Jai might have never been there for our dates but he is there when I need a shoulder to cry on. I nuzzled into the crook of his neck as he brought me to the couch.

"Babe shhh Im sure it will be fine. What happened?" He cooed as he sat me on his lap.

I thought for a minute I cant tell him about Harry. I love Jai and I still have feelings for Harry but I would never cheat on Jai. No matter how ignorant and self centered Jai is I will never cheat on him, I have to learn how to forget about Harry and move on because he found someone better.

"I rather not talk about it. Don't you have somewhere to go with your friends again?" My voice came out harsher than I intended.

He is usually out with the same group of people everyday. But today is different he's here actually helping me cope with my feelings by being the shoulder I cry on. He looked down and smiled at me.

"Actually I dissed them for the girl I love. I realized that what you said this morning was true. So from now on I will not miss a single date and will not purposely ignore you while Im out with my friends."

"Thank you." I snuggled against his chest and laughed at the black mascara stains.

"I love you." His kissed my forehead as he placed me on the couch wrapping his arm around my waist.

"I love you too."

We sat there in silence it was relaxing. As I slowly drifted to sleep Jai spoke.