Blurred Dreams

The Pain You Gave

The Pain You Gave

Back then in the house
Of what I thought was my uncle's,
When I saw your own eyes,
It was love at first sight.

Right now, when I stepped foot
Of this very place we met,
In front of glass windows,
All I saw was tears.

My reflection was as true as it could be
Where everywhere you look
Every corner of my being
Was nothing but a broken soul.

Asking what happened to us
Was unnecessary--tis' so obvious;
It all ended on that one dusk,
When you said, "Let's break up."

I asked you, "Why?"
Didn't you remember, my love?
And you answered nothing
And left me standing there by myself.

The sun settled down,
And soon, the moon has risen above;
But still I waited for you to return,
Until, I realized, you never will.

Up to this day,
I lived in misery;
I couldn't eat, breathe,
Much less--live without you.

And every step was meaningless,
But I've tried hard to forget;
But how could I?
How could you tell me to not reminisce?

Soon those thoughts died down,
There came a time when I've forgotten,
Only it wasn't you or anybody else,
It was none other than me. 

And now everywhere I looked,
Every inch of breathable air,
Was an eyesore, and I
Could barely breathe--I was suffocating.

As I was walking
Throughout every corner of this house,
I was seeing memories of tears,
Of something that was once ours.

I suddenly hid behind the stairs,
Where the mistletoe once was,
Where we shared our first Christmas,
And the love none can compare.

But I wasn't there to be happy,
I wasn't there to be with you;
I was there to cry myself out,
And to hide from the outside.

Everyone seemed to be talking,
About none other than us;
To be honest, I was tired,
Tired of being constantly reminded of our loss.

We're over, didn't they get it?
Nada, finito, capish!
But I knew why they're doing this,
It was all to make me feel bad.

If you were here,
You'd tell me not to worry,
To ignore their snotty comments
And just be sucked into the world of you.

But you weren't here now,
And all I could do was to cry,
To mourn, and to long
For a comfort that has lost existence.

Wiping those tears away,
I went out of my hiding place,
Avoiding all people, by all means,
And shushed them when they see me.

I didn't want someone to talk to,
And, as of this moment,
I wanted silence,
A silence that could kill.

Kill--that suicidal word;
That has never crossed my mind before,
What of it now?
I forcefully asked myself.

"Let's go home."
A tap on my shoulder did I feel,
Looking back, I saw my father,
With worry written all over his countenance.

Nodding my head, I looked back once more,
Remembering the place memories strongly held,
And turning my head out front,
I sighed and decided, this was the last time.

And when I risen from my bed,
The pain I felt still remained,
But a few minutes after,
I've forgotten--the pain you gave--You.