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Soldier - Taeyong

(Lightly based off the song Soldier by Taemin. I will add the song to the header so you can listen while reading. It's gonna be a little sad...)

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Taeyong's P.O.V

They tell me to stay strong, Taeyong, but they also tell me it's okay to cry. Either way, all I want to do is yell at the top of my lungs. I want to cry out to the world and curse its name. Someone so meaningful didn't deserve to go like this.

Tears streaked down my cheeks as I walked in the chilled wind. The lines they left behind quickly left the spot freezing. A light dust of snow fell from the darkening sky. Street lights lit up the sidewalk I walked down.

Everything reminded me of you. If you were still here then we would be walking this street together, probably going through stores, joking and messing around. We would end up pissing off all the store owners because we would spend hours just throwing plushies at each other, yelling at each other from opposite ends of the store, pranking other customers.

A watered down smile surfaced on my face as I recalled just last year, the two of us running down a candy shop aisle. You tripped on one of the stands, sending suckers to the floor. We spent the next half hour sweeping it up for the manager who caught us. We could never stop laughing.

This time last year, we were walking this same sidewalk. I held your hand in mine as I lead you along. Slow landed on your eyelashes and nose. I kissed your rosy cheeks, which only tinted an even deeper shade of pink. We watched a group that was singing Christmas carols and ringing bells. Wide smiles spread on our faces as we danced together.

I wiped my tear-stained face. It didn't help since more poured out of my sore eyes. I glanced towards a store window. It showed my pathetic reflection. My eyes were puffy and such a vibrant red. The corners of my mouth were slanted down as I tried to fight back the sobs that threatened to climb out of my throat.

It was this night last year that I couldn't save you. I wasn't fast enough. You took my hand, pulling me behind you. It was your favorite song playing from the speakers of a shop across the street. I knew it was your favorite because you sang it all the time. I loved hearing you sing your favorite songs. I loved hearing you dance to the beat. And I most loved when you shared it with me.

I can never listen to that song the same way again.

If only I had yanked you back to stay next to me as I pulled out my phone. If only I didn't let you cross that street so eagerly. I heard it first, the loud horn, but it wasn't enough time to change anything. There was no going back.

The lights that the front of the car gave off were blinding. They sped down the icy road. You twirled, continuing to follow the sound of that song you loved so much. I held up my phone camera to snap a picture, but it wasn't what I wanted.

The phone fell from my hands, shattering against the ice and pavement. The car had come to a skidding halt. Your limp body was lying on the cold ground and the snow around you became a crimson red. The strength in my knees gave out, and all I could do was fall onto the ground next to you. My stone cold, expressionless face tightened along with a grip I gave to your hand. My eyes slowly moved to the horrified driver that was now outside of the car.

My body shook with an immense aching that was carving a deep pit inside my chest. My stare burned straight into the drivers.

"I'm sor-... The roads a-..."

I only held my stare. The lights, the sky, the road... everything blended together into one giant blur as hot tears pricked my eyes. There was too much shock, too much surprise, too much happening to be able to sob. I was rigid, yet shivering. People surrounded your broken body, and my broken self.

I wasn't whole without you.

I wish I could've saved you. I would trade anything to have you back. Why couldn't I have been your soldier? Why couldn't I have saved the day?

My eyes reopened from the flashback. I was kneeling on the ground in a place I didn't even realize I got to. Sounds buzzed in my ears, but were diluted, like I was just floating under water.

"Hey!" I could finally make out. My head slowly turned its way to face the source of the call. The brightness of a car's headlights clouded my vision where I sat. I was blinded by the pure white color... before it went completely black.

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(A/N): IDK why I wrote this I feel bad, but I thought I should write something sad IDK DONT ATTACK ME

Qotd: Do you sleep with socks on or off?

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