My First Random Book

my first vent? i guess?

Okay, I know I haven't been updating that much but I have a lot of things to talk about on here and idk who to talk about it. So I guess I'll make a chapter about it.
And I know no one will say and see this and say "oh cool, I'll check it out later" (well I guess that happens? Idk)
But, here it goes.

I am starting not to care about everything now.
Everytime I want to say something, it comes out so wrong. And I have speech and stuff. But, when that does happen, I laugh it off. Even though, I feel like they are judging me. (Which I think they are judging me because of that. But idk if they are.)

And I know that everyone cares about me, but I don't know if that is true. I feel like I act stupid. And ever single time I say something out loud in class. It goes out wrong. And the boys judge me. And I feel like they don't care about me

I wish I can be normal. Be smart for once. Be like I won't get fun of and be judged the way I say something.

But, life doesn't work that way.