Random things

Worthless

He said “I don't care”.

I remembered that moment.

I thought I was getting better.

Now I have nightmares.

Of being bullied.

The deaths that happened in the past 2 years.

Him saying he doesn't care.

It reminds me of how my biological father left.

I don't even know him and I'm sad that he left.

I feel worthless.

My mom, my family they say they love me.

Why don't I fully believe it.

I'm just prepared to be disappointed now.

Two people I was closest to died.

Then my grandpa said he will be there for me.

But then he said that he doesn't care.

I have the feeling of being worthless now.

Even more than when I was 6 and in kindergarten or first grade.

Any grade I was in public school really.

I thought I was getting better.

I reminded myself of that one moment.

Now I don't know anymore.

I try but to me all I am is worthless.

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I just realized what has happened in my life......... eh. oh well.