Dear Seamus,
Its almost Christmas. A few months after the incident. I miss you, big time. I now how cliche this is gonna sound, but i never realized how much you actually meant to me, till you left this world. I can here your voice now, "quit being a whiny bitch and suck it up". Yup that was our relationship. It was great. I know that you wanted to end the pain, but what about my pain, or Olivia's? How about Penny's? I know that no one would believe me, but I saw you. In a dream, or vision.
There was a house, on a hill. People were walking around doing household chores, gardening, mowing the grass. I passed all them and went inside. I knew I was looking for something but I didn't know what. As I was walking through the house, i noticed it was bigger on the inside than the outside. Then I came across you. You where sitting in a brown suede chair. In your socks, some blue jeans and a black t-shirt, laughing. Your hair was a little longer than last time I saw you. And you looked so young, and happy. You had a light in your eye's that wasn't there for a long time. When I saw you I ran to you and kneeled by the chair and I asked how you were. You said you were great, that you've never been better. I was confused. I knew deep down that I wanted you back, so I told you "lets go". You didn't move, instead you asked, "where?" I replied, "come on, we have to go back". Then you said "why?"...."I'm happy here, and besides he won't let us leave." I asked you, "who?" You didn't reply, instead I found myself at the bottom of the hill again. I haven't seen you since. It hurts Seamus, It hurts real bad. I miss you, and since Christmas is almost here, It hit even worse. I don't know why its affecting me now, But I wish I said more when you were alive. I wish I told you just how much you meant to me. I miss you. I love you Seamus, And I'm glad your happy.
With love,
-Cindy Child
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But The Memories Won't Let Me Go
RandomMainly letters to my best friend Seamus Powers who had passed away. He suffered with depression and couldn't take it anymore. On September 11th, 2017 I had discovered he had successfully committed suicide. There are other random things in here too...