Long time no see, eh Seamus? I had another dream about you last night. It was horrible. I dreamt I went back in time and tried to prevent your death. I was in the past, writing notes for your future self to see and maybe realize that you were loved and cared about. In the dream I thought that would save you, but I lost you anyways. Jump forward in the dream and here's where it started to get unreal. I dreamt I went to someone to connect with your spirit. I was asking you why and if you regretted it. It was painful, so very painful. I woke up crying my eyes out, what a way to wake up eh? You left a gaping emotional wound and it still hurts. I'm in so much pain Seamus. I miss you so much. In the dream I lost you again. These dreams won't stop, and I know that. I'm sorry for the pain you felt. I'm sorry it drove you to do the worst thing possible, to leave this world behind. I love you Seamus and I hope you're in a better place. It's gonna be two years since it happened and I'm never gonna get over it y'know? I wish I could have saved you. Oh god it hurts y'know? It hurts so much...
-Cindy loo
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But The Memories Won't Let Me Go
RandomMainly letters to my best friend Seamus Powers who had passed away. He suffered with depression and couldn't take it anymore. On September 11th, 2017 I had discovered he had successfully committed suicide. There are other random things in here too...
