Chapter 56

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Ryan's pov

"Let's continue....Its my turn now Crysi truth or dare" Ethan asked crystal

"I'm gonna go with truth"

"Okay Do you like or "love" someone?" Ethan asked

Oh god this is uncomfortable..Crystal face is turning red and she looked at Ethan in a very serious way and then whispered something to him behind Mia's back ..I'm pretty sure this has something to do with me ...does she like someone ...Me?!

I know she has feeling for me ..or maybe I don't...i really don't know I'm literally confused but what I know from the deep of my heart that i love her i love every single thing in her.... her personality that stole my heart from the first time i saw her .. the baby crystal that get out of her when she's having fun ..her laugh the makes my heart melt...her eyes that glow when she is talking about something important trying to convince me of something ..everything she do is magic... she changed me a lot she made me a better person

I looked at crystal she is still silent she looked at me multiple times in a confused look i think this is went to far she isn't responding and this is way too uncomfortable..i thought she would answer...but maybe i'm wrong

"Can you c-change th-" she stuttered but I cut her off

"What are you embarrassed it's a normal question just answer it.....Do you love someone? " I said and Crystal turned her gaze on me we stared at each other not knowing what to say i can't read the expression drawn on her face ...then she shook her head slowly while still looking at me then she decided to end this awkwardness

"I-I don't have feelings f-for s-someone" She said and her words was like a knife dripped into my heart cutting it to half ..that couldn't be real ..i can't believe that

"Your turn Crys" Blake said trying to light up the mood but it's too late Crystal's eyes are already watering

"I-I'll go to my room Excuse me" Crystal said standing up then she start walking fast

Silence filled the air and all of them looked at me worried but I faked a smile to lighten up the mood
But i know that Blake doesn't believe this smile neither do Ethan ....they all know that i have feelings for her I can't hide it

"Umm... maybe i will go to sleep guys it's pretty late" Mia said

"oh yeah me too"Amanda said

"ok lets we all sleep now to get some energy for tomorrow " Blake said and we all nodded and went inside the house and everyone went towards their room
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After an hour of Blake trying to talk to me nonstop he's finally asleep but I couldn't sleep. I'm lying on the bed looking at the celling. I can't get what she said out of my mind

"I don't understand " i said to myself sitting down on the bed

I can't breathe it's really hot in here or maybe because I'm nervous ...kinda mad...oh god I'm losing my mind ,My heart hurts so bad

I've never like that....what did you do to me Crystal
No i need some fresh air if am gonna stay here overthinking all night i'm gonna lose my mind literally

I went to the dresser and changed into black sweat pants and a grey hoodie and went straight downstairs and opened the back door and started to walk towards the shore ...it's pitch black and cold but I don't care actually, I know it's dangerous to be next to the sea this late and with this enormous waves but it's not what i would care of right now i just need to clear my mind ,I need to think....

I will not lie to myself..i love her and i will admit it. I thought she has the same feelings for me, But what happened today messed up with my brain

Does she even like me or not? I don't understand ..maybe she said that because she didn't want anyone to know ...or maybe she doesn't love me at all and didn't want to lie ohhh good

OR MAYBE SHE IS STILL IN LOVE WITH CAMERON

"DAMN" i shouted while throwing a stone into the sea, And then i throw myself on the soft sand laying on my back staring at the sky....

She changed me ...i wasn't like that , i was sad ..upset ...always mad and making fun of people i was bad ...my life was miserable but deep down i know that wasn't me but I couldn't fight over to return that nice Ryan back ...but she did ...she is my first love ...i did date a lot of girls but i didn't fall in love with any of them and she's different she isn't like any other girl she has something special...
Now when i found the girl that my heart fell in love with she might be not in love with me

And i will not put her under stress if this will make her uncomfortable
I think i will travel back home tonight i won't be able to see her tomorrow knowing that it will be awkward
Me and her are in a lot of hesitation ......

I stood up and i'm walking back towards the house
I should bac-

"I'm so sorry for asking this question I really am" someone break my thoughts

Who is talking ...i started to walk slowly not making any sound trying to find where is the source of this voice

"it's okay E" ...it's crystal
I looked above and i saw her standing with Ethan in the balcony it's pitch black so they didn't see me I couldn't help it so I stayed and listened

"I noticed it" Ethan said

"Noticed what?" Crystal asked....what did he notice?

"You like him" ....what!!

"like who?" Crystal asked nervously

"Stop playing stupid Crystal I noticed it"

"i don't play anything i really don't understand " crystal said slowly

" oh really ok i will play along with ya ..You like Ryan Crystal" ...WHAT WHAT!!!

"No i .....OK FINE I DO " Crystal said and started to cry

"Why are you crying ,you like him and he seems to like you too"

"He said it Ethan .." crystal said

"he said what??"

"he said that he loves me "

"WHAT WHEN?" Ethan asked in a shook

"when we were studying at my house"

"And what did you say !!" Ethan asked

" I couldn't say anything Ethan i was scared i'm still scared i like him i do like him a lot but my heart is still hurt from what Aaron did to me ....and I don't have the enough braveness to get in to a new relationship I'm afraid that Ryan may break my heart too ...i know he wouldn't but I'm just afraid i have mixed feelings in me but what i know for sure that i like him and maybe more than just"like him" " Crystal said while sobbing

"Ohh Crysi Why didn't you tell me " Ethan said hugging her while she is crying on his chest

"lets go inside it's freezing " Ethan said taking crystal inside and i'm standing in a huge shook
She said she likes me ....I'm shocked

"she likes me ...SHE-" i stopped myself realizing that they could hear me then i smiled to myself

I'm happy but my heart breaks for her she's still hurt because of that MOTHE-

I took a deep breath and exhale it

I will prove to you Crystal that i'm not like him

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